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recess week part 1/2

2010-03-04T02:21:00.002+08:00

missions failed.

:(
in
ureca lab, assignments, tests, reports, personal targets.
etc

okay,
move on and tomorrow will be better.
*fingers-crossing*

aza aza&cheer up!!

recess week part 1

2010-03-01T15:19:00.004+08:00

Okay.
to start on a more cheerful note,
i guess the happy-go-lucky me is back once again!
*hooray for that~*
yep, i can choose to be happy or otherwise, to start off every single day.
so why not to be a happier chad?:)
*even though easiy-emo is one of my "trademarks"=X*

so, recess week has just started and finally,
finally, i have some extra little time for myself.
although recess week is never really holiday season for us the uni students, i guess some relaxation and slacking time are not too much right! *self-convincing haha*
there are tonnes of things to settle :
lab reports, seminar, CA tests, ureca labs, assignment, post-event stuffs, upcoming club events, volunteer traning etc etc.
not forget to mention some chill-out activities like shopping, some self-pampering to-do eg haircut and skin treatment, and some entertainment such as movies and dramas.
too many things under the list=X
so many to accomplish but never have enough time.
and guess what, i slept for half of the day (nearly TWELVE hours today!!!=X), and it just got wasted off like that..
i think home sweet home is just too nice for a hybernate-like good night sleep!
okay, let's plan it this way, hopefully i can spend half of my holidays for leisure event, and half of it for academic events=X
*now that i have said it, i have a bad feeling that these are not gonna come true, according to "past experiences" LOL*
anyway, just try my best la!=p
and, shouldnt recess week be a holiday week that are supposed to be free from scoolworks??? hmphh.. *think too much*

well, the major event for me this year -- SBS Day was just over few weeks ago.
overall, i think it was great and i enjoyed myself! despite some clog up here and there, which i think are indispensable?=p
i wish the same too for the rest of my maincomm and subcomm family members and the SBS population in general, also people from other faculties and from outiside NTU.
there are things which can be improved definitely, but this event has made me grown up in one way or another.
*shall not elaborate here, will turn out too long haha*
Next up, hall prod costume and make-up subcomm.
nah, i guess those who know me well, will certainly look at me with disbelieving wide-eyes and this astonishing look on their faces.
cos i have never been good at these kinda stuffs, especially make-up LOL
nevertheless, it was considered a quite enjoyable experience for me.
although i am new over there, with the fact that i have never really joined much of the hall activities and thus never know people there well, i find that i am quite well-received there.
not to say that i can click with all of them and get to know them well, but they are quite nice bunch of people.
it was true that initially i felt being out of place there, but as days went on, i find that some of them are quite friendly and nice to talk to:)
while some do not really bother about me being there, and hence i felt a little awkward.
anyway, it was still an experience (given that i have never been in a production before!) and i managed to convince myself that my time were not wasted there haha.
i shall learn more on make-up thingy from weiting, my msa friend aka costume and make-up maincomm=) *if i have the time though=p*

yup, so basically my pre-recess week was spent as described above!
look forward to the rest of my recess week!
hope it will be an "enriching" and "fulfilling" one! :p

-will update more here if i have time.
pictures uploaded in fb too~

the unspoken

2010-02-15T23:37:00.003+08:00

a post from the inner me, under the skin of my outer bright and cheerful self..

unwritten letters.
unspoken words.
i typed, i deleted, i typed again, and i deleted again.
i cannot pretend and fake my feelings.
i dont know who and how to tell, but here.
perhaps it is always my wishful and wilful thinking.
perhaps it is all illusions that i have seen.
time to let it go?
yes, i think it is.
no matter how hard and bitter it would be.
no matter how pathetic it sounds.
no matter how silly it looks when i shed my tears for that.
because i dont want to stand alone in an awkward situation,
which it will never be real
so i guess this would be the best solution.

so long, goodbye.

and i dislike the feeling when im misunderstood,
i dislike myself, when i always do the wrong thing at the wrong timing, and causes such a consequence.

after today,
i shall start to try to let it go.
it is just a matter of time..
i believe.

to myself : fenwei, there are so many other things in life which you couldnt afford to lose, so what's so big deal about this? life is beautiful, it's just a matter of how you view and treasure it. time to let go and stop looking backwards when there's nothing worthwhile for you to hold on to. move on and you shall see a better tomorrow. there's always sun and rainbow after the rain. dont ever forget how to smile and also other little things that cheer your day up..

you will be alright.

warning : do not worry

2010-01-27T02:18:00.002+08:00

I guess i might have typed out things exaggeratedly.
maybe it was really how i felt that time, so strong a feeling, but when i looked back at what i have written, i somehow felt abit silly and unable to explain anything when buddies approached me and asked me what have gone wrong.
I am absolutely thankful and felt the heart-felt warmth by their concerns.
at least i know that, there will always be someone there for me to listen to me, to bug me, to call me up, no matter how busy and stressful they are in their lives.

thanks you girl! for letting me to feel that im not alone in this world.

even though there are so much to tell, so much to catch up, so much of different things and different experiences that we are having now, on different parts of the horizon, thanks for giving me the feeling that im still loved and appreciated.

im a person who can get sentimental and emotional pretty easy.
i feel lonely easily.
but perhaps it's that i have too many things to attend to right now, with SBS Day the biggest annual school event coming underway while i am one of the chairpersons, i have no time to think about and fret on any emotions right now.
i guess my brain and nervous system is too busy to feel other feelings right now, apart from stressful!
i will certainly brace myself up for that.
and i wont let myself and the rest of the family down.
two weeks, just two weeks of "non-human" life, and i will be fine.
i hope that i would not give up halfway.
i will give the best shot.
what i need is really everyone's support and their way of viewing it, as important as how i view it, and also the spirit of family members getting together and stay strong and helping each other at times of difficulties.
please give me the strength for that,
and i will promise that everyone's hardwork is going to be paid off.
please please~

this academic year, i felt lucky and glad to be in the committee.
this is from the bottom of my heart.
not at all for hall point, but for all the fun and tears that we shared together.
no matter how the others think.
it wouldnt be the same if i didnt join in the big family.
i would not have grown, learnt and experienced, should i never be in the family.
i wonder if everyone feels the same way as i do, but what i must say is that, i have never felt the words "united we stand, divided we fall" so strong as ever before.

fenwei,
stay strong.
and big girl dont cry.

p/s : guys, i will watch my words the next time i typed. there is actually nothing serious to worry about my previous entries. who am i? im the strong fenwei!;] so nothing can bring me down! i must have faith in myself~

thank god i found it!

2010-01-22T01:05:00.003+08:00

yes.
thank god i found it.
now, i realised something which i have never really given it a thought in the past.
i guess this is a good lesson for me.

学会珍惜和在乎
不要等到失去了才来后悔
因为往往失去了就不能重来
也千万不要迷失自我
那会是人生最大的遗憾

fenwei, dont let illusions blinded you.

i am sorry...

2010-01-22T00:48:00.002+08:00

i will regret it for the rest of my life.
how could i let that happen?
even though i know my feelings, i shouldnt have done that.
where is it now?

where?

i swear i appreciate it a lot.
but it's missing. how could i lost it??
i feel like crying now.
will miracle happen?
will i find it again?
one hour passed. searching continues. but no where to be found.
i feel like a scandal now, i feel like i am the worst being in the world, i feel like i should just be shot down right now.
i feel miserable.
i guess i will condemn myself and it wont be erased from my memory forever.
what should i do now???

post xmas

2009-12-28T08:47:00.002+08:00

This year's xmas was a different one for me.
went for a christmas drama gathering by City Harvest Church at Expo on xmas eve, with my maincomm family.
was the first time been there, and also the first time joining a christmas celebration like that.
it was fun and joyous=)the drama was good! the whole place was grand and full of people, and i got to know new friends from my school!=)
but i was abit shocked cos i have never experienced so huge a gathering by all christians at one place, so i felt a little awkward at times=X
it's truly an eye-opening experience for me though. haha
after that, we went to changi airport for our "supper", but there was big crowd of people that we hardly could get a table at any eateries.
luckily we found one in the end, with all our stomaches growling haha.
tried Popeye and it was not bad, though im not a fan of fried chicken hehe=p
we thought of going for a midnight movie after that, but didnt make it in the end.
i so wanna try out the 3D specs for Avatar!!
but luckily we didnt go, cos i just realised how tried i was after i have taken my shower back in hall and i went straight to sleep lol.
i think sometimes you get more awake after you have stayed up for too long until very very late at night, and it wasnt until when you see your cosy bed that you realised just how exhausted you are after a whole day haha!

And there came the next morning.
It was super jam on the way back to jb.
at both sides of the customs.
so in the end, me and my family missed the Redbox Outing!!=(
instead we went for a meal at Lavendar cafe.
their xmas deco was very nice and elegant! but the food was just so-so haha.
then at night my dad received an unexpected call from my grandma's house. apparently my relatives were going to celebrate my grandpa's birthday but they forgot to inform my dad!!*faint*
so we rushed back to pontian for the usual dinner at some restaurant.
And the highlight this time round is that my dad went on stage to sing!!!
HAHAHA
*ehh dont laugh my dad was awarded some singing prize last time when he was young okay LOL*
im not going to post the video here though=p
and my uncles went to sing too~

so that was my xmas~
and here i am, back to hall, going for my labwork now=X
*without mario, i hope that i will be more careful and dont spoil ANYTHING during lab!*

pray hard for that!

p/s : i want a new phone! so that i can upload more photos and stuffs!!=X

emo is the worst feeling ever on earth

2009-12-16T23:21:00.004+08:00

i feel sad right now.

why am i always choosing to do things that will upset my own self?
isn't that hurting myself?
but again and again, i fell into those loops, and have myself locked up in sorrow.
am i someone who is not approachable and detesting?
sometimes i just feel that people are ignoring and disliking and having themselves away from me.
did i do or say something wrongly?
that might accidentally make myself being misunderstood or unintentionally offend anybody?
i really hate the feeling of being misunderstood.
it's like you are not that kind of person, yet if you start explaining, people might just think that you are such a fake person, and the more you explain, the more it makes things worse.
so in the end you stop explaining, you keep quiet, you just pretend that nothing happened, and people might just think that you admit whatever things that are not at all true about you yourself.
and also in the end, you cant explain anymore, and you cant do anything but have to let it be.
and it will always be a thorn in you.
which is hurtful and you are never able to remove it.

it always happen, to me.

i dont know.
perhaps im just too timid and lack of self confidence to voice things out.
at the right moment, right place.
im one who is always not very "mixed-in" with a big whole bunch of people, especially when that bunch of people are very close to each other.
it's like, why are you even there?
you are just like a wall of transparent glass among them
they will never see you, not even talk to you.
what you left to do is just to smile and "haha" at their jokes, pretend to play with your mobile phone at times to avoid any embarassing moments, or just stare blankly at some point in the air.
nobody will even care to talk to you.
even if they do, they will just treat it as a kind of courtesy.

in fact, i think im already used to it.
i want to change, but somehow i guess i lack the power and courage to do so.
who am i?
what is my true self?
how will i actually act in response, given that i follow my own feelings and not what others think i will do?
sometimes im confused, about this.
the person that i portray myself as, is that the real me?
or someone i dont know?

but i know, there are always exceptions.
i believe there are always people who are nice and willing to accept you even if you are new.
i guess my passive thinking might stem from some unhappy and hurtful incidents with friends in the past.
perhaps that's the reason i tend to shield myself a protective shell when i first meet people.
and i tend to think negatively when something wrong happens.
i guess im still improving myself on that.
at least now, i think im more friendly and more outspoken to people whom i dont know.
and at least im less afraid of meeting new people now.
but again, i just hope that i dont overdo anything..

once again, i need to be thankful too for all my close friends and family.
relationship between human beings is something very unique.
it's unpredictable, sometimes it makes you laugh, but sometimes it makes you cry.
and alot need to be learned about it..
i guess i still need to improve alot on that.
even though sometimes i tell myself not to care about what other people think wrongly of you, it certainly hurts when people are seeing you as someone who is not your true self.
it's hard to express, and i know im bad at describing that kind of feeling, but maybe this is one of the reasons i always get myself being misunderstood.
for being unable to tell things properly and to express myself properly=X

well, fenwei let's let your sorrow and sadness become your energy and motivation to brace yourself up!
let's treat those unfortunate incidents as your challenge to grow and become more mature~
you still have friends and family who treasure you a whole lot,
so why bother about something that will only make you unhappy and emo??
let's forget it!
and let's hope that truths will always be there in the end.

p/s : i just realised that im always blogging about my negative feelings=(
dear friends who are reading these, im sorry about that! i hope that i didnt portray my life as always dull and gloomy and full of negative events. that's certainly not the life that i want!!! but somehow i just feel that i need a channel to throw out all the bad and sad feelings that im forced to keep within me. it's like a kind of process, starts off with the worst case scenario, proceeds on with all the things that i wanna shout out, and after that, in the end, i try to make myself stand up from all the ruins..

"who is that girl i see
staring straight back at me
why is my reflection someone i dont know
why i cant pretend that i am
someone else for all the time
when will my refelection show, who i am inside.."

hang on there fenwei! u can do it!

2009-12-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

five more days.
two more papers.
okay i must believe that im gonna make it through~
had a bad day today cos of my stats paper:(
already studied as much as i can, but in the end it didnt pay off:(
dont understand why i did so badly, but, nothing can be done now...
except to jiayou more the last two.
sighhhh~~~
but the feeling of giving up is stronger than ever.
now.
couldnt really concentrate but i have to move on, fenwei move on and do your best for the next two!!
this moody feeling is also partly because alot people already finished their exams.
atmosphere doesnt appear right now.
=(

anyway, was very touched cos i received a surprise visit from daddy mummy!!!=))
not really a surprise, it's just that i had forgetten that they told me they are paying me a visit tonight, ie just now.
HAHAH see how poor my memory is=(
brought me some food stuffs, my favourites, and some other daily necessities.
to think of just to deliver me things, and yet went all the way across causeway to my hall, this really touches me a whole lot.
not only this time round.
but everytime. it does.
dont know how to express it but
suddenly tears swelled up in my eyes. i tried to swallow them back in.
ahh just how emotional i am!=(
suddenly feel the homesick strongest than ever~
to think of my mum going to genting concert this weeked, my lil cute sis and dad are goyang kaki at home, alot of my friends already back to home sweet home, while ME, still have to STRUGGLE!

ahh i guess i have to really buck up!
and stand up from where i fell, look at the bright side of things, and
most importantly, set the HOLIDAY as my motivation to push me forward!
dont slack anymore, jiayou!!!

f o c u s!

keep holding on.

2009-11-28T21:09:00.002+08:00

keep holding on,
you know i'm gotta make it through,
i'l make it through
just stay strong,
you know i'l be here for you,
i'm here for you..

Avril's song ringing in my mind..
telling me not to give up..
yeah, just when everyone starts finishing exams and packing up back home,
im still struggling for four of my core papers.
SBS is unfair! even next year's exam is also until THE VERY LAST DAY~
well, what to do, guess i'll have to get used to it.
even though there's more time to study now,
i don't feel any improvement in my study progress=((
-sigh-
and i didnt do well for my last paper=(
a lot mistakes here and there.
i know it's no use to cry over spilt milk,
but i cant help to feel : aiks, i would not go wrong IF i have studied this and that, IF i have paid more attention to memorise this and that etc etc.
well, i guess that's human nature to feel that way.
*at least it is for me=p*
okay, shall not brood over it, make my mood even worse!

i need to jiayou already.
and i hope my good memory comes back to me~~
cos i have been forgetting things more frequently these days=(
is it because i have not taken good care of my health and couldnt get enough sleep?
well, i dont know.
i sleep quite well, and eat quite well, during this exam period.
but why is this happening???
arggg~

suddenly realised and remembered,
there are things undone.
i can still do it NOW but it will be quite weird.
anyway, this is it :
i really wanna thank everyone, PERSONALLY, for his/her help and contribution during the Exam Nightmare.
*nah told you it is weird already, to feel this now, i should have done this AGES back, but i didnt do it! which is why i dont understand too~ cos this is not what i always do!*
anyway, i dont understand as well, as to why am i feeling this particularly strongly at this point of time?
haha, maybe there are too many things in my mind queueing up for the frontal lobe of my cerebral cortex to be processed.
and it just happened that this piece of information got its queue only NOW.
LOL

well you may say this is lame.
but,
sometimes in life,
we will definitely encounter something,
which we regret for not doing it at the right time, and at the right place, under the right situation.
and later on when we realised,
it was already too late.

just like now,
i have wasted my time blogging,
and didnt go study,
and i couldnt reverse the time anymore=(
or when i wake up but silence my alarm and sleep back until few hours later,
only to realise later that i have missed the good time to do my laundry in the morning=(

so,
dont ever let a chance bypass you, to make you feel regretful later, for the rest of your life.

-no name-

2009-11-17T20:51:00.003+08:00

i wonder if anyone ever feels this.

when exams come nearer and nearer, apart from rising stress level, the mind tends to wander and gets distracted easily, and prone to become emotionally-laiden.

this is what happened to me.
i tend to think more (not academically though=X), or rather stone/day-dreaming more often than i usually do.
perhaps it is the boredom from all the books and notes that put me off.
perhaps my mind and brain automatically tries to shut off things when i eagerly try to squeeze all the info into it.
and,
i become more emo than usual.

i feel like im standing alone in this battlefield.

once saw a good line, (not too sure if all the words are correct)
"You and I, me and you, and all the rest, we are all living together, but we live alone."

i cant agree more.
as i grow older, as i see and experience more things,
i cant help but to realise some of the cruelties in this world.

we cant escape.

unless we are dead.

but even if we are dead, they still exist.

what brings me to type all these out, i have no idea.
no particular reason, just some sort of emotional let-out, out of no where.
sometimes i wish i could be a simple-minded animal, then i dont have so many things to worry about.

and,
i feel emptiness ballooning inside me.
i dont know why.
but it is just there.
i feel that i am not loved and concerned.
but that isnt true i know, i still have family and friends.

haha
probably just a weird part of me which i cant comprehend.

well,
stop all these emo-ing please,
focus on the study fenwei!!!

*dont waste time!*
lol

and good luck to everyone having exams now!
take care~~~
especially in this rainy reason

just something random...
-"please dont cry, because i cant see your tears in the rain"-

after so long...

2009-11-12T20:54:00.003+08:00

i thought my blog was dead.
since long time ago.
because i have no time to post,
because i have no reasons to post,
and because i dont know if there's anyone out there who is willing to spend some time reading my posts.
nevertheless, those are not important.
i have always treat here as a place, of my world, to express some of my thoughts and feelings when i dont know where and who i should direct them to.
*sounds like this is a place to voice out all sorts of my negative feelings haha*
yup so anyway, have been busy with school club activities past few months, apart from heavy schoolworks this semester.
first time being a social secretary in my school club, alot to tell but i have no idea where to start off..
i have learnt alot, know new friends,and it wasnt easy at all.
but, im glad that i have chosen this path, even though it is never a smooth one.
i have faced things i have never encountered before,
i have braced myself to make decision,
i have learnt my weaknesses,
and i have also learnt to trust myself and never lose faith with what i have decided.
again i have to thank everyone who have helped me alot along the way,
when i feel sad and streesed and on the brink of losing out,
i know i have to face this alone, and no one else except me, have to hold upon the responsibility,
but amidst all these,
i have seen helping hands.
not all but i know they are there.

and what more? i have survived!=)

and i know i wouldnt repeat my mistakes.

-----

again, here comes the exam period.
and again, i feel so unmotivated, compared to last time i dont know why.
but i have to work hard, this semester is really tough!
fenwei you must jiayou~~~
F O C U S !!!

-----

and, some kinda feelings have been spreading in me.
i wish that i could get rid of them.
they are unhealthy.
they make me differ from my true self.
they make me confused.
they make me couldnt concentrate on what i am supposed to do but sailing away in a wrong direction.

"there wont be any interception between two worlds"

i am not supposed to believe in fairy tales and fancy dramas.
i should wake myself up.

no worries, i think i can.

*to laugh it off, im still the mighty fenwei after all isnt it?~

it will go away.

at least that's what i think.

gathering, new hairstyle=)

2009-07-21T11:30:00.003+08:00

i love gathering=)
like the way friends get to meet up and catch up with each other, and even like it if we are still able to chat like we used to be during the old old days~
haha.
it's totally even a rarer chance to get to gather with primary sch friends!!!=)
so there it goes~

imagine how time flies!it has been i think around 8 years we didnt see each other, right since we graduated from peihwa!

the ladies=)

i notice how everyone changes, but the way we still can recognise each other(except "someone" hahahah), and chit-chat happily together, makes my heart felt the warmth and true value of friendship=)
hopefully we can get to organise another one next time!let's pray for the next time=p

anyway, had a new haircut yesterday!

i had dyed my hair!=)for the first time, using my own money~
i like it personally=)
ahh but too bad i forgot to ask the name of the handsome hairdresser, LOL, or else next time i can ask him to do my haircut again, cos he's really skilled!hehe

went to muar. and then back with illness=X

2009-07-16T23:13:00.005+08:00

monkeys all over=XX

beautiful straits view at tanjung emas

me and dear mum=)

the durian!

the old street's view~

eat rambutan-sss~

forever-young and pretty aunt=D

shirley and yitin jiejie=)

gosh and more durian-sss!!

after all the eating-sss,

me and me mum kena gastrointestinal infection=(
vomitted all day long since monday, till i scared=X
luckily getting better now.phewww~~
we still couldnt figured out the actual cause though.
and now i believed the saying that there must be a price to pay for, for enjoying and getting too pleased with oneself after all the food cravings!haha!

*now as i see it, how did i just turn away my favourite pizza right in front of my eyes?*

appetite really does work wonders.lol.
cos i dont have much appetite right now=(
need more time to regain my huge appetite!
and i shall wait patiently for that day to come!health comes first!

*or shall i?HAHAHA*

korean BBQ + station 1 "uno stacko"

2009-07-10T19:53:00.004+08:00

first pay that i have ever received in my life!=D
cant properly describe my feeling of proud and satisfaction=)just very happy and felt accomplished~

the moment of "achievement" LOL

and part of the pay turned out to be...

a korean BBQ gathering with my sweet buddies=)
the food were absolutely yummilicious!!!

to top that up, we had some drinks and games afterwards at Station One Cafe=)

taadaa~ *i bet u can see the slanting angles=D*

dear shuying, susu and me!

and it's time to try to "repair" my poor shorts=(
kena bleach accidentally due to my own fault=(
hope the flower pattern that i have sewn on didnt look awful~=S

*see the faded patches?*

step's bday celebration

2009-07-05T16:00:00.004+08:00

this was the first time i tried mexican meal;]
the restaurant is called El Migos and is located in sutera mall, a nice recommendation for whoever that wants to try out mexican dishes=)
and the prices are quite affordable!

the signature japanese style pizza (it sounds contradicting to taste a japanese style pizza in a mexican restaurant though=pp)

sambal baked rice

grilled chicken + rice + corn soup

grilled cajun fish

step and daddy=)

me and mum=)

me and the birthday girl=)

the forever-act-cute little sis XD

and we went secret recipe to buy her "birthday cake" which made up of two slices, one was choco mud fussion, the other was mango passion. and on top of that, two scoops of vanilla+chocolate ice-cream (not in the picture=p)
YUMMY~~~

luckily i was working full-time in the previous month, or else im surely to gain lotsa lotsa weight out of my powerful cravings for food!!!XD (even out-do my dad=X haha)
and talk about my last month job, i couldnt help but curse them under my breath!
i have never felt more exploited and cheated than i am now, what a lame excuse they are giving me now!
imagine now it's almost one week since start of july, and they havent even paid me!they better realise that no matter how good-behaviour-ed or good-tempered i am as seen, i have my limitations too!
what with the wrong spelling of my name on the cheque(i dont even remember anyone complaining about my handwriting) and the out-of-office-hour-so-i-couldnt-ask-the-manager-of-ur-cheque all kinds of excuses!
and they even replied me that sorry they are too busy to attend to me when i took the initiative to ask them the outcome and when can i actually get my pay.
and she (the supervisor) even couldnt give me a proper date for issuing my cheque when i asked her! only to get her reply that she'll contact me when the cheque is ready!
im just thinking and hoping that this wont be any of their plot!
alright let's see who gets the most out of this in the end!
hmph~

and i would never ever recommend anyone to dine in there or even work at that kind of place!to imagine me even considering of helping them by working there part-time someday in the future!
ohh the sound of it makes me sick right now!
i wonder how long will they be able to hold a good reputation!
feel pity for my colleagues who are still working there!hopefully they are not being bullied=(

happy birthday step!

2009-07-03T16:41:00.002+08:00

to my dearest STEP aka STEPHANIE,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! XD

u have all the love in the world!=)

p/s : i would always love u no matter what happened, though we always argue and fight our way, i couldnt stop laughing and smiling to myself when thinking of the great days and childish acts we had done together=)thanks!

hugs hugs~
sisters forever!

let's have a great celebration together later!!

one after a long while.

2009-07-03T15:26:00.004+08:00

my bloggie is being abandoned by its mistress for like..one month?
haha.
so sorry about that. couldnt help.
i have been busy working and earning money in the previous month.
and now i just quit my job. waiting for my salary.
that will be the first pay i have ever gotten by myself! i think ill feel triumphant and be proud of myself lol~ hopefully the pay will be decent!
it's not easy to pull through that month though.
too much to tell but i couldnt seem to arrange or sort them out properly.
no pain no gain.
this is so true.
i miss schooling when i start working. i miss studying. i miss all my friends.
but i treat this as an experience. a valuable one.
i was working as a waitress at a japanese restaurant near my house.
that was my first ever job.
i have learnt how to serve customers, make drinks, take orders, and memorise all the names of the dishes, and etc etc etc.
my colleagues are all quite nice ppl. but most of them are foreign workers, except me, my supervisior, and one of the chefs.
they come from various countries, eg myanmar, vietnam, nepal.
we communicate in very very "broken" english (i think ill have to start conversing in proper english haha) cos they can only understand certain simple english terms.
and to my surprise, i have a young 19 year old lady as my supervisor!
i think she's kinda mysterious, she has a big temper i can tell, and i think i just dont know her well.
sometimes i think we are in good term, but sometimes some of her actions and words go against it.
she likes to make fun of me, (i dont know if it's on purpose or not) at the same time talking to me like she's some great goddess from way above heaven, sometimes i just loathe the way she talked to me. but on the other hand i cant deny that sometimes she's being kind to me, like asking the chef to do me a glass of lemon drink and cocunut drink when i fell ill few days before i quit.
while with my colleagues, ill admit they treat me quite well though we dont know each other very well. most of them have been working there for a few years.
i doubt it when i first went there, cos i was ordered to do all sorts of cleaning jobs, however, as time goes by, those daily cleaning chores become something as normal as brushing teeth in the morning to me. haha. probably thats how i managed to survive and get used to it.
to me, i think im always that one who is working soundlessly and a do-what-she-is-told that type of person.
i dont go around communicating and interacting. i will just do my part and keep quiet.
this is not how i always portray myself as.
i thought ill be one who is cheerful and outgoing and kind of an extrovert.
or probably thats because of my working environment, i couldnt seem to find a colleague who can click with me like sisters.
i think that will be one of my regrets when i recall those working days.
i thought ill be missing them a whole lot, but the truth doesnt prove it, maybe it'll just become one part of my memory which lies in the deepest.
probably thats because they are delaying my pay day again and again!
i tried to be nice with them, but if they insist on treating me that way, i think i might explode one day!
though i never would want that to happen.we are anyhow one big family isnt it?
apart from tiredness, i think i have learnt quite alot which i would never know if i didnt work. i got to observe ppl from all walks of life.
and i think ppl in jb are somehow rich! they could afford few times of patronising the japanese restaurant that i was working at in just one week!=S
cos i saw familiar faces very often. lol.
and i never know that don sushi has quite an amount of regular customers, cos i always thought that it is a quiet place with not many customers.
and since around two weeks before i quit, they started this japanese buffet thingy and was having big scale promotion in the neighbourhood, so i believe this brought in alot customers, and that time was the busiest moment in my working life!=S
life is filled with ups and downs, so does business in a restaurant.haha
anyway one of the pleasures from my working was that i got to encounter this pair of old couple, they are nice and friendly (i seldom met really nice customers, some are just normal while a few are relly bad-tempered and calculative and rude!). we talked for awhile before they took their bill.
they are a loving couple, which i think is a rare scene to see these days.
haha how i wish that when im old with white hairs someday, i could still have that someone to hold my hand and enjoy the tiniest happiness together even for just a simple japanese meal hahah.
i felt that im touched deep within.
ohh and besides that, the lady boss actually treated me a bowl of Mabo Ramen on my last day of working.
i was indeed touched in the beginning, but i could sense some kind of motive behind it later on.
cos later when i was having the ramen after i clocked off, my supervisor talked to me in her "threatening" way (or perhaps she always talk to ppl in that kind of manner i dunno), asking me if i could help them out during holidays and weekends.
apparently i smelled the purpose behind that bowl of ramen and i totally hate that feeling at that moment, it just tasted sucky suddenly..it tasted like rasuah..
and so i replied her that aww i would try my best and we would keep in touch, but in my heart, i told myself if i would even consider about that.
nevertheless, that is still an uncertainty, probably i would really go back working the next time im looking for a job during my holidays whatsoever..
she told me that they are lacking in workers (i can see that cos there were already two person coming to work and then left the next day or on the first day itself, i think im the only survivor there lol), and since im sort of trained, it would be better than to hire another one and to teach him/her all over again.
seriously i thanked them for their appreciation, probably im a good worker after all haha. cos i have never been late and always obey what they asked me to do, except a few broken-glass cases which i think is absolutely unavoidable to the blurqueen me haha.
now i just wish that they wont act cunning and deduct or delay again on my pay~
and so, there goes my one month of holidays
and im back slacking at home now=S
anyone know of any nice temporary job?
i still feel like making my holidays more fulfilling instead of wasting my free time!
there again i would like to pamper myself and my family and friends with my frist pay!=)*before school starts and evrything goes on in a full and hectic speed=X*
that would be brilliant!

-me and selina, the pretty myanmar girl, and the suave sushi master, ramesh from nepal-

;]

i hate being E.M.O.

2009-05-28T16:48:00.004+08:00

sometimes, somehow, i become emo.
suddenly, with no obvious reason, or perhaps it's a complication.
unable to get a nice job, unable to earn money, unable to buy stuffs i want, unable to look good, unable to do things the way i want, unable to etc etc etc..
sometimes i just feel lousy. very lousy.
it's like im stuck somewhere out there, cannot move on or even back off.
i understand that life can be so unpredictable.
i can feel extraordinarily good at one moment, and the next second this feeling stops and i fall into deep pitch blackness. suffocating.

***
i dont feel like digging my mind to write out that bad, awful, terrible first working experience, yet i couldnt resist the anger and despair to want to complain it out loud.
i couldnt believe my first working experience to be this bad.
never did i expect that a store clerk would need to carry and shift stuffs here and there, from upstairs to downstairs, from inside to outside.
i thought it's just some simple task on desk where i sit around and key in data and barcodes and stuffs like that.
the supervisor did mention that a little bit of carrying might be involved during work but i never thought it would be heavy items.(it's just a store for shops selling gifts and accesories)
i thought there must be other male transport workers or something like that.
and yesh, there are, but they didnt seem to bother seeing me struggling in carrying stuffs, let alone helping me to carry them.
they are so so so not GENTLEMEN~ =X
no doubt a few of the workers there are nice, or maybe they seem to be (i wouldnt know since it's just my first day), but this job is really killing me!
never will i step into this kinda work anymore~
count myself bad luck, cos i couldnt even get my pay on that day bcos they told me it needs to be at least one week of working before getting paid!
the lady supervisor said she told me this before, but hey, i dont even remember she saying this!
well, in the end i just dont feel like arguing with her, i tried to be gentle and well-spoken, so i just said : ohh is it?!i dont realise~, but my heart saying : WTH is this?!!
and her tone of speaking immediately changed after i told her im quitting.
it's so true that the working world isnt a dreamland, it's like some kind of battlefield and there are so many things to learn!
well, i guess i have learnt a good one this time!
pros and cons, people need experience to grow up and improve~ i hope i am.
and i pity those female workers there, they seem to be suffering alot, with no proper mealtime and doing these hard works all the time under the awful supervision by that lady i mentioned above (this was what i heard them saying during lunch), but they are qutting soon (i feel glad for them too), that's why the place is hiring people.
i just hope that people in the management will do more for their workers' benefits.
so that they wont suffer so much and get better pay for their work.
anyway, i will never try this kind of job again, imagine having to work in dusty and uncomfortable environment. not like i dont have academic qualification.
and my whole body ached like hell after even one day of working.cannot even sleep well=(
so, i have no choice but to quit the next day.
sighxx...
working is truly not an easy matter..

***
seems like luck doesnt favour me these days=(
maybe that's why im feeling down, feeling blue..
can something happen to cheer me up?
*finger-crossing*
i wonder.

what makes my holiday?

2009-05-23T16:25:00.003+08:00

"i aint gonna waste my holidays!!"
that's what im telling myself since the beginning of my three-month holidays but now, look at what i have done these far..??
jobless still, with idling mind, feel like rotting with every passing days..
tired of waiting. waiting for calls, waiting for interviews, waiting for something interesting or fulfilling to happen, waiting to earn money for spending and treating family and friends, and waiting for these wishes to come true.
and so i wait. i tried. and i failed.
i just hope that good news will come soon...
*finger-crossing*

anyway, whilst all these waiting-ss, i have learnt something!
i learn cooking! ;]
though still not very skilled at=S lolx~
and i got to spend some good times with dearest friends and buddies. watched good shows and movies. tasted nice food.
at least these are ways to convince myself a little for not wasting my free time;p

BIGGEST LOVE : JCO DOUGHNUT!!!!!

redbox outing with buddies. *too bad susu went off to work!nvm next time we camwhore again!!*

went for an TRA weight management workshop with family

LOVE-sssss : THE MELANCHOLY OF HARUHI SUZUMIYA!!!a must-watch!!
i like the sweet innocent romance between haruhi and kyon~

&&btw, i have gotten my last sem exam results!!!!
feel happy and contented!=)it's quite unexpected though ;S
and i have shown slight improvement=p will work hard as well in the next sem!!
congrats to everyone!!=)

***
ahhh cant wait to end my boring holidays!!!
get a life fenwei!!hope things will fall into places...
aza!

what the hell!

2009-05-12T13:42:00.002+08:00

it's TOTALLY wth!
i dont know what had happened!
the moment i signed on to my msn just a minute ago, one of my friends told me he received some weird emails from me, and what more, after few seconds, all my contacts just DISAPPEARED!!!
YES, ALL OF THEM!!
and i dont even know if they can see me in their msn as well~ ;[
anyone out there could tell me what has gone wrong??!
im pretty annoyed and frustrated right now!=(
HELP~~~
and if anyone received any weird emails or messages from me, im sorry about that and just ignored them okay!
god, i just hope all my contacts would come back to me!!!
ARRGGHHHH~~
super pissed off!!!!

time for some updates!

2009-05-11T17:14:00.006+08:00

i felt like i have abandoned my bloggie for such a long time!=X
so i guess it's time for a little updates=)
though nothing much has happened to be blogged about since i gained my three-months vacation after year 1 semester 2 final exam~
and i hardly realised that my first year in NTU has actually finished!=S
now that im watching my friends feeling excited about entering university as freshmen, i felt being "old" because next semester onwards im already a year 2 student!!how time flies~~
and i couldnt really imagine myself being a senior to guide juniors HAHAHAH!
ppl who know me well would know that im way too blur to guide juniors, esp in showing the correct direction, haha!
anyway, i hope i can help them as much as i can and try not to "mislead" them=pp
hope that this year's FOC(freshmen orientation camps) would be fun!!=)
and talking about holiday plan this time round, i earnestly hope that i wont be wasting this three-months time anymore!!
there's no denial that i have come up with my LONG LONG to-do list, somehow i doubt if i can fulfill them=(
anyway just wanna try my best!
*first thing first would be to settle myself into a job with decent pay, haha*
good luck and gambateh neh fenwei!!
*as a consequence of watching japanese shows since this holiday, i feel like im kinda adapting their way of speaking e.g. adding "ne" at the end of my sentences LOL*

well, just some random pics below from spore flyer outing with coursemates & mother's day treat ;]

group photo!=)

getting darker.and the lights on the spore flyer keep changing its colours

the platform for spore national day's parade

we're landing!

mummy daddy~ *we're at sizzling stonegrill ;]

steppe is shy~~

food-craving me!=X

the most yummilicious whipped potato ive ever tried!!=)=)=)

spicy tuna spaghetti

the famous stinegrill tomyam~~

*ahhh right now i just wish to try out all the good food around the world!!!LOLss~*

random pieces of life

2009-04-05T01:26:00.002+08:00

random, no sequence.
fragments of life.

phantom rose became a smiley sunflower;D
bel-canto rocks!~the one and only version of "all i ask of you".

an extra-large tissue paper packet=S
say me being "suo-gu" or "kampung girl" or whatever, but ive never seen it before.
HAHA

squash day=)sweat it all out man~
i'ma gonna be prepared for muscle injury and pain again though=X
anyway, nice scenic view from NIE.
ive never realised such a paradise-look in campus.and now i know.

can u see the rainbow?
it's as if i can touch it.so near yet so far~

cat again!
i wonder why are there cats wandering around hall area.LOL
*they are doing nothing but us busy and stressfully study all the time=X*

STARss-search=)

2009-03-30T23:44:00.004+08:00

event : Earth Hour
date : 28 March 2009
time : 8.30pm onwards
venue : rooftop lawn of ADM(Arts, Design, and Media) building

teloscope viewing and searching for horoscope stars.
i never know that a night with clear starry sky can be so mesmerising and beautiful..
lying down on grassy lawn with a little bit of wetness.
breathing in the fresh air with traces of grass smell.
throwing off all troubles and worries but just staring blankly at the sky above.
as if i can reach and touch it with raise of my hand.

what a wonderful and romantic night.
to be spent together with friends.
and not to forget the adventurous climbing along the steep "grasshill" to the peak of the building!=D
WE MADE IT!!~~;]

i thought of something now.
比起瞭望无际的夜空，原来人真的是那么那么地渺小...

hahah.

daylight view of ADM (top : beside the building, taken randomly while waiting at opposite bus stop after my singing elective=p ; bottom : from inside the building, this is the water fountain at the "base" of the intersecting curvature structures)

nightview=)
i personally like the bottom pic the most.hehe=p the one with ppl standing arnd looking at the star-strewn sky=)

dearest jiashin with me=p (gosh me in sweaty look=SS )

p/s: exams are coming, will i be able to cope with it?
pray and do my best, is what i can and capable of doing now.no matter how stressful and a procrastinator as i am.

要加油啊~

recovered

2009-03-22T22:43:00.001+08:00

haha yea thanks~~

finally my blogskin gets restored=)

hope everything runs smoothly again~~

wth..

2009-03-19T18:43:00.002+08:00

shit.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BLOGSKIN???

ARGGHHHHH~~

i need help~

a post after some time..

2009-03-19T18:16:00.003+08:00

yea ive been not blogging for quite some time already~
busy busy busy are the only words to describe my life at the moment=(
lab reports.
lecture notes and tutorials.
presentation-sss.group project.
and alot other various reasons that drag me down=(
but il work hard!!!
yea i must really start to work hard~~
it's like three more weeks to final exam=XXX
and i havent even really caught up with every week's lessons=(, not to mention preparations for the final exam=S
and as u guys know, or might not know, haha, im indeed a SLOW person.
slow in eating.
slow in studying.
slow in understanding.
slow in basically everything in my daily life.
HAHA.
sighxx~
anyway, been to Singapore Botanic Garden last saturday for my eco-architecture presentation.
*nah i really shouldnt be taking three electives this semester=(regretted it but nothing can be done now except to move on and work hard as much as i can~ now the worrying part is having no idea which subject to SU~gosh~*
was an enjoyable trip=)
a very nice place with lush greenery and scenic view.
food at the food court were not bad.
haha.we only went Tanglin Core which is only a small part of the whole garden.
haha.
and the weather was killing us!

next, i went for NUS Open House with my great buddies=)
shuying, susu, jiashin, tianhui, belinda=)
the place is great!=)
and i like the food there i guess, obviously more variety then NTU=(
yea but anyway, is really awesome to meet up good old friends=)hehe
too bad, we should have take lotsa pics~

yups, so basically i guess these are the things ive been up to these days, haha, apart from busying over academic stuffs=X
i'll try to update asap=)
if there are things to share with=)hahahaha.

[能够释怀是一种很棒的感觉，我相信我应该已经做到了..但愿如此吧～]

分玮要加油努力哦=)

all i ask of you OR isabel??

2009-03-09T18:32:00.003+08:00

the loving Raoul&Cristine~*but poor Phantom~*
a very beautiful love song=)
last friday, so coincidentlly, after i reached home from spore(around midnight 12, haha)and halfway doing laundry, i switched on the tv and was browsing through the channels, and and TV2 was showing this Phantom of Opera! so unexpectedly that TV2 actually showed a nice show which i so wanna watch!!but i missed the first few scenes~it is really a must-watch!!
cos just watched this clip during the singing elective class.
and was spontaneously attracted to it=)
somemore our group presentation will be based on this drame.haha.
and dont you think the love song is just so soothing and loving and touches heart?=)
and the perfect duo~~
hahaha, next time when i have a bf must ask him to sing with me~~~
HAHAHAHAHAHA~~~

okay, so now im puzzling whether to sing [all i ask of you] or [isabel].
both are hard but for the presentation, we need to sing these classical songs=XXX
ahhh dilemma~~~

this is a spanish song anyway.
haha.nice song too=)
if i sing [all i ask of you], i need to sing alone and modify the song abit(which i dont really good at=S )cos obviously i dont have a partner to sing with me, i think it seems like most of my group members are singing solo.
if i sing [isabel], i need to carefully change the key higher and at the same time headache about finding the minus one track(there isnt any one in the internet=S )

or anyone out there wanna play the instrument for me???=D
haha.

in the end spent alot time on this, yet couldnt come to a final decision=(

sighx.

hopefully i can faster reach a solution and start preparing!
so that maybe i can finish my presentation this week, no need to drag on and on=)

jiayou fenwei!!!

celebrating dad's birthday:]

2009-03-08T22:49:00.004+08:00

as this weekend i might not be going back jb, most probably, hehe, we whole family celebrated dear papa's birthday in advance=)
this time round we planned to try on korean food, which is actually my brilliant idea!!HAHAHA.
there is a korean BBQ restaurant at taman sutera utama=)
omg the food are splendid!!!and i like the design and ambience of the place=)
except that after u walked out of the place, u would smell from a bbq pit=X LOL.
anyway, too pity we didnt have bbq or steambot cos mummy is not feeling well=[
hope she gets well really soon!!!
yups so instead we tried other stuffs, which are all new to us, cos we never eat korean cuisine, but i personally fancy all of them.hehe=)
and for those living near the place, nah, nice suggestion from me to try it out one day!!im sure u guys wont be regretted=)just that it is quite exp.haha

pictures to share of cos=)

free dishes, i think should be their 开胃菜=)
i like the 泡菜 the most!!it's spicy with tinge of sour=)
there are also steamed egg, and other unknown dishes, haha, but all tasted heavenly~

拌饭=)

barbequed mackarel=)
my family all teased me because i dont always tear the fish meat myself at home, but at the restaurant i do it all by myself.HAHA.probably the fish was too irresistable~hahahaha

at first we didnt order this, cos the waitress heard us wrongly, but anyway, this is the 炒杂菜=)i like the sweet+spicy sensation=)

the korean "pancake".looks more like "omelette-roti prata" mix to me,HAHA.

the "cutest" duo~haha

why is daddy 寿星公 looked at me so fiercely??haha~
*nvm, after taking photo we'll still let u continue enjoying ur fish dish, be patient be patient=DDD*

smilezzz~

before leaving~mummy and me=)

well yeah, im sure gonna "conquer" this korean restaurant next time!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAH~
anyone wants to be my accompaniment?=pp

contradiction

2009-03-04T00:27:00.003+08:00

i shouldnt really picked this ultimate critical moment to fret over things.
have test tmr.
i better try to turn in early and shut off all the negative thoughts.
it's really a bad day.
or rather i make it one myself, i guess.
i just couldnt figure out how and why am i reacting this way.
how can i let a person to have such a huge impact and influence on me?
wake up fenwei~
please knock all the insensibility or irrationality away from my head.
i shouldt be doing this.
ahhh~
sometimes i just wish if i were a simple creature without any complications in mind and thoughts.
no troubles.
no doubts.

还真是有点可悲.

but again please do well for the test tmr fenwei~
i needa fix my neurones all back into the right places for me to function normally.
gosh.

mummy's birthday=))

2009-02-27T00:11:00.007+08:00

we went to Italiannes;]
basically just food, food & FOOD!!!
with lotsa LOVESsss=)))

&*the food served just couldnt wait to be photographed=p
so here they are!

me and stephanie's fav MASHED POTATO!!!!!LOL

fried mushroom salad~

mama's seafood baked rice=)

papa's green pesto olive spaghetti=)

steppe's grilled chicken chop=)

my crab-tomato pasta=)*not craP, hahaha*

the "loving" ones=)*sit closer sit closer~LOLss*

the "mashed potato" twinnies=pp

mummy happy birthday!!!i love you~=))

the funky fake couple~HAHAHA

i always enjoy the splendid precious hours spent with my family=)
although i come back home very often, sometimes i can still have bad homesick=(
especially when im alone and not in a noisy cheering crowd.and in a stressful situation.
it's really HOME SWEET HOME=)
so im fully utilising the pleasure and relaxation at home now.
haha since im still in recess week~
too relaxing until i barely study and catch up on next wed's test oh gosh!!
HAHAHA.
must buck up already mrs.blur sotong!!i find that im really slacking and doing nothing, couldnt seem to pick up the study mode!!=O
it's just so "not-me"~HAHA!
i dont feel much pressure right now, should i be happy that im stress-less now or fret that why am i having too much slack-ness when im not supposed to?haha
i wonder if anything wrong is happening in me=X
anyway i believe there must be pros and cons for staying at home rather than locking myself in hall and campus.LOL
but it all depends on myself on how to fruitfully maximise my time usage!
it's like so many things that are on my mind but i havent done or even started, yet my holidays are coming to an end=((*ish ish ish~~~*
ahhh i want my holidays back~~~
*i wish i can be like Hermione in HP, knowing how to reverse the time to complete two different things simultaneously*haha

procrastination kills.

a busy week

2009-02-19T23:41:00.004+08:00

what a busy week!
never-ending and more&more crazy-making lectures n tutorials.
activities n stuffs.
in fact it's not as busy as what i expected others will be.
but seeing my forever slow-ness and blur-ness in doing and completing things, and continuing at this rate (i tried multi-tasking but never will do better than the others, haha), i certainly need more than 24 hours per day!*who doesnt wish anyway?haha*
monday labs. tuesday goodie-bag packing. wednesday whole day classes. thursday BS Day.
and talking about tuesday, i did a terribly stupid and unbelievable thing.
it might not be so OMG to other ppl, but it is definitely not an uncommon phenomenon in my dictionary. LOL
i forgot to bring my "utmost important" file to school!
it wasn't until when the bus almost reached LWN bus stop that i suddenly felt a heart-jerk and was "cursing" under breath that my forgetful-ness struck me again.
somewhat at this critical moment when i was definitely going to be late for 5 mins even if i brought my file and walked at top speed.
which is what i do everyday, haha, i mean to be exactly ON time for my classes, due to my slow-motion-mode in the mornings, and always rushing at rocket speed.
*leg muscles had grown inches i guess, not to mention the "pain" for walking too fast, haha*
so back to the story, lolx, in the end i decided that i musn't skip tutorials and i must bring my tutorial papers to class(since i was confirmed to be late, and it will be very weird too to be late and at the same time enter the class empty-handed) , in which i tried as much as possible to maintain my "clean" record, haha.
so i retreated to hall, by walking from LWN back to my "hall-sweet-hall 15*
hahaha.
and it was like so damn weird when i see ppl all walking in the opposite direction of mine.
everyone is heading quickly to their classes.
they might think why this girl was walking so frantically opposite the way to schools.
HAHA.
okay enough of my self-imagination=p
so after getting my super precious file, which so obviously lay on my bed(nah..), i took the bus again and reached my tutorial room 20-25mins late.
and they already discussed till the 4th question.
haha.
but luckily the tutor repeat explanation for the first few questions, definitely not purposely for me though, haha.(cos the tutorials always end early and the tutor feels like giving us more explanations so as not to end so early)
so this is the story.
i wouldnt want to let this happen again!
ughhhxx=ppp
haha.
and then on wednesday, the ICTF(international cultural and travel fair 2009) was held at nanyang audi.
it was an amazing bazaar!!!
booths from many countries, games to play, lucky draw, nice and unique exotic food, magic performances(the guy is awesome!!!he even showcased it right in front of us!!HAHA.mesmerized!), costumes trying and photo-shooting etc etc.
some pics to share=)

the indonesian costume=)

kazakhstan costumes~

the indian hyena(did i spell wrongly??)
it's like body-painting or tattooing=]

and today, due to N_ _ _ _ _ , me and jiashin had suffered long hours(i think around half an hour) of tiring walk from south spine-north spine-nie-hall.
just because that person asked us to go support.
wadduh.
okay i can understand that he's a so damn perfectionist, where he thinks we all subcoms must no matter what give our utmost support to our hall players and this spirit of patriotism and stuffs, but we are just like "ca-le-fe" over there!
unless we are very close friends or like very closely and tightly-knitted to them, i mean, we are late-comers and didnt get to really know them unlike they among themselves.
i didnt mean to be sarcastic or offensive or whatever, which i definitely wont do.
and we didnt even see him there!
okay maybe im just being paranoid and complaining, in fact i actually dont at all mind that we go support our very own hall players, who surely done us proud!but the thing is, we dont feel that we are at all needed there!
which is the sadest ever case.
could you imagine, you are in the midst of all high-spirited hall mates(who you dont recognised or know any one of them), cheering and having fun among themselves, it seems like you are just an invisible bubble there, vulnerable and alone and elusive.
and, what more was the bus was no longer available by the time we left!
so the poor me and jiashin need to walk all the way back to hall from src=(
jiashin has test tmr somemore omg~
for me, i SPOLIT my super duper triple "baobei" new shoes=((((
the long walk(or rather speed-walking)had seemingly taken a toll on it=(
poor thing!

scratches=((
i just bought it not long ago, it is not even a week's time!
it got scratched at the front part.TT
so i used the blue-highlighter to cover its scratches=[
but it is still there!so big a patch!
*heart-throbbing*
and not to mention my poor toes, red and swollen~
sighx.
however, all the hall dance performances were FANTASTIC!!!wooohoootsss~haha

anyway, i sang Bukan Cinta Biasa with ean wearn for the Talent-time in BS Day today.
though we didnt get the prizes, we won an experience!witnessed other very very talented singers in SBS too!
thanks ean wearn for duetting with me=)
and jiayou!
haha.
just that im still very disappointed with the management of BS club.
long story.
no personal grudges though.just as what i had said above.
i'm 公私分明=]
i can be strict in works and duties, but beyond that scope, we are all still friends and being helpful to each other, at least this is what i hope;)

haha.
i shall stop now to continue my work~
blogging for a long hour already=)
jiayou fenwei!

emotions

2009-02-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

In Love Again - Karen Kong

I'm still very in love with this song;]
a random search for songs reminds me of it, and memories flood in..
i like karen kong!!!!!
she really has a very sweet yet powerful and touching voice, that pierces through my heart when i listen to her songs.
how i wish i have a voice and techniques and singing emotions like hers~
smooth and flexible.
it's like tasting some creamy and rich in volume ice-cream.haha
the above version is her live performance i believe.not very clear though=(

random

2009-02-13T18:48:00.002+08:00

the cat is overlooking the busy road underneath an overhead bridge.
suddenly had this funny and weirdo thought, what is the cat thinking??
missing its parents or spouser or kittens? thinking of food availability? worrying about the future?
or simply just enjoying the scenery and have nothing much in mind?
haha.
maybe that's why human being is superior of all the other living organisms on this planet.
we have all sorts of thoughts and feelings.
we think for ourselves and for each other.
we are full of emotions and expressivities.
if i ever given a chance to choose what kind of living organism i would be, will i still choose to be a human?
haha.
well, i thought i was getting too far carried away though.
hahaha.
crap.

okays anyway, as valentines day is just around the corner(it's tmr!haha), NTU is definitely filled with angels sending love~=)
not to mention all kinds of dedications and events=p
so i went with my friends for an event called VALENWINE and CHOCO AFFAIRS held at nanyang audi=)
basically u got to try all kinds of wines with just a voucher!!haha

with sheau yng the sweet&lovely girl=)

&&i received choco gifts from my dear friends=)
thanks!!HAHA=)
so may all of us, no matter the singles or couples, have a happy and awesome valentines day!!~~

love is in the air~~(:

upset.

2009-02-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

i'm upset.
felt abandoned, unsupported, not being understood, or rather, being misunderstood.
why cant they just trust me?
give me faith and support rather than pouring me with all sorts of negative comments?
i'm a grown-up, sad to say, shouldn't i be doing whatever i am enjoying and at the same time take my own responsibility upon it?
i know sometimes it's truly hard to balance up time arrangement, and i absolutely know how a procrastinator i am, but, i'm telling myself, fenwei u can do it! and when the time is right, i will know when to give up.
or to continue, persevere.
isn't this a way for me to grow up? mentally and spiritually?
to be a mature youngster, and to know exactly what i am doing?
why cant they even trust me on this?
i know it is hard, but i try and hope and i know i can pull it through.
even if i fail, i know this is my own choice.
and i take it as a lesson, to keep moving on and excel in my own life.
am i still a child in cradle who couldn't even make a good and responsible decision for my own?
to take care of herself?
i know yes, sometimes i am just childish and immature and undecisive, but i hope, and i know, that once i have made a decision, ill try all means and my best to make it a good one.
and did they really give it a thought?
that is, a life wthout sociality and entertainment or rather, something that u really enjoy in doing, which can serve as a boost to study harder and harder, a life that one desires?
is a passive life, with no friends and things to do together, one that i would want?
did they really think that locking up myself in room and mugging all the time, a lifestyle that they want me to engage in?
and yes i know nothing is good when overdone.
so did i not try to make full use of my time for my activities?
i know most of the time i'm not a person that can fully and wisely divide my 24 hours, but did i not try to make it a reality?
i tried.
and so i know i wont be engaging in too many activities at a time, which i dont think i'm even doing one now, at least when exams are near.
but now, i just hope that i can do more, and enrich myself, when time is possible.
no one has ever had a second chance in everything, or perhaps, rarely.
even if there is, it wouldnt be the same anymore.
and once you have bypast them, u'll never know how regret u will be in the future.
i'm just very disappointed and depressed.
for their speech and whatever doubts they are harbouring in me.
i know they mean the best ever for me, but sometimes i just need some space to do things that i love, and i'll make sure that i do it properly and not letting it ruining me myself.
can they trust me on this?
i dont know.
im confused and saddened.

CEE week singing performances=) + MSA CNY Dinner

2009-02-08T01:09:00.005+08:00

These are the videos of my performances=)
after listened, i think i didnt do well TT, at least not as good as during practices*which is always like this~=((*i was nervous i know and my voice sounded weird=XX
haha, anyways, a BIG BIG thank you to a few of my friends who could make it to watch my performnce=)
thanks lots and im really really touched!!=))
so i'll definitely be more jiayou for my another upcoming performance on next tuesday around 12.30pm-1.30pm, which is the 歌咏午餐音乐会(:
im one of the performers and i'll be singing 会呼吸的痛 and 手心=))
hope everyone can come support and i'll do my best!!~~
hehe.

p/s: do comment on them and give me ur constructive opinion!=)
*be it sarcastic like simon cowell or sweet as paula abdul!hahaha;P*

anyway, i just came back from the MSA CNY Dinner held at Hall 12 Function Hall.
the performances were awesome!!
includng quadruplet piano piece performance(im not sure if i called it correctly, haha, it was played by two ladies), harmonica, wushu, lion dance, live band etc.
there was also the voting and prize giving for some interesting awards, e.g. the most eligible bachelor & bachelorette, the blur queen/blur king, the most lovey dovey couple, the best-rumoured couple, the sexiest guy / lady, the captain mugger etc..
it was hilarious.
too bad many of the only friends i know didnt come=(
and in fact i dont know many ppl there, so was feeling rather awkward and was behaving like a stranger there=S
as in dont know how to mix with the rest as most of them already knew each other.
this is the disadvantage of not having to join the FOC.sighx=(
hope the coming FOC(im gonna be one of the programmer subcoms)will be the chance for me to get to know more friends(:
the more the merrier, as the saying goes, hahaha.
then we can act very hyperactive and enthusiastic and be a crazy bunch of ppl~~
hahaha~
*nah i sounded like im crapping though=X hahaha*
but it's the truth im saying, really hope can get to know more nice ppl and friends=)
cos we are all malaysians~~!!HAHA
and oya, i tried chinese calligraphy, haha.
wrote a few phrases on those red papers, will upload the photos if possible=)

okay, i think that's enough.
was feeling tonnes of exhaustion.
and i need more sleep, more time to finish my scaringly-alot tutorials and lab report!gosh!
dont procrastinate fenwei!!!

nites everyone=)
have a sweet dream~

NIU year(:

2009-02-02T21:55:00.005+08:00

as time creeps by, CNY has finally come to an end.(more or less, haha)
nice food.
nice snacks.
nice gatheringss.
nice people.
nice festivals and celebrations.
nice fireworks.(i didnt play, just watch, lolxx)
nice tv programmes.

-relax-ing-

LOLxx.

my CNY this year was as usual, nothing very special.
reunion dinner on 除夕 and relatives visiting on 初一, both at pontian, pa's hometown.
but, i truly enjoyed the CNY Bainian gathering with my SSI friends=))
we played the mafia, gambled, eat&drink, chit-chatting and catch up with long-time-never-see friends.haha
there were MANY ppl attending : me,susu,tian,emma,haiching,shanlei,cuishan,huishan,xinyi,king,bra,ken,alex,mok,bon,sia,jitxiong,shengloong *i hope i didnt miss out anyone=X hahaha*
will try upload the pics once they are uploaded;)
hmmm, i miss chiamun though, so sad she couldnt make it=( *jiayou!she must be very busy over her final year project~AZA AZA!!=)*
nevertheless, it was great to meet up with old friends!!=))
&&all the very best to everyone!no matter which path we go;)

so yeah basically my new year was as described.
haha

oya wanna upload pics from my birthday last time.
it was kinda long ago though i know.
haha
cos i just gotten them=p

WITH MSA BUDDIES=)

say cheeessseee~

with the babes=)

with the hunks=p

with the late-comer.lol

with dearest roommie jiashin(:

WITH BS COURSEMATES=)

the ice-cream-like cake.hehe

thanks guys!

with the girls;)

with the guys;p

"huuuuu"~ lol *makes me think of 我要呼呼..bwahahahah~

make a wish=))*may all dreamss come true*

kla, i think that's all.
im deprived of sleep.yawnnzzzzzz~~~

jiayou fenwei!
buck up!
dont procrastinate!

=p

ice-skating

2009-01-23T01:43:00.004+08:00

*let us ice-skate on this never-ending beautiful journey:)*

this journey has taught me not give up hope even after many "fell down"s..
(reality is indeed cruel cos even though i had fallen down N times, i still couldnt skate properly=X LOL)

peculiar

2009-01-22T20:25:00.002+08:00

top 10 reasons for why cant i stand myself these days??

1. i couldnt stand my blurness

obviously i had lab at 230pm today but i misread the timetable as 330pm, i was running through my mind that i had lab at 330pm instead of 230pm. so i ended up late 15mins to my lab=S *sorry shuhui~~*

2. i lost my appetite

i have been running low for food appetite since few days ago. have no idea what has gone wrong. not only in the morning, but as well as lunch and dinner. i felt very full and had tinge of feelings to vomit even i have only eaten a little bit compared to last time.

3. i ended up regretting taking 23AU

why shouldnt i follow the majority who only took 20AU?i think i must have this thought of committing suicide just before add drop period ended. now regret also no use=(( the only way out is keep going on. and be more hardworking:( *this makes me think of the poet i once learned--the road not taken-- lol*

4. i procrastinate!*just too much*

i dont feel like studying these days. or more accurately, since school started. lol. at this rate, im afraid i wont be able to survive=( cos not only my studying speed is terribly slow, my memory deteriorated, i think i wasted alot of times online-ing and watching shows :[

5. im always slow, and late

this applies to my eating speed, or basically in everything i do. i thought i had improved on my eating speed, since a studying in spore, but sadly, this is not. and i wake up late, late for class, sometimes accidentally but more often is that i tend to knock off my alarm and head back to sleep =p

6. im too timid to voice out my opinion

sometimes is due to my timidness, or rather, i chose to keep quiet most of the time. mostly it's not that im shy, but i have no creative idea to contribute=( *good luck and jiayou for later! the first meeting here in which im the vice-chairperson, just a small one=) &&i hope i can be more active in class or any discussion group, i dont want to be like a nerd!!!=(

7. more exercise please! dont be lazy!

reduce body fats!=[ have a healthy lifestyle. walk more. sleep more. *it says that ppl with lesser sleep are easier to gain weight=X * also to have better concentration during lessons.

8. i dont spend time wisely. i should make better judgement.

everyone has 24 hours per day. why i always find it not enough??? i stopped halfway for my fav storybook-twilight series and korean drama-iljimae.TT be rational~

9. new year is few more days but i have not done enough shopping=(

i have not bought my new year footwear:( there are alot of things i wanna buy~ but maybe im too fussy until ended up with nothing=X

10. i spent half an hour, or more, sitting in front of my laptop, thinking of the tenth reason, but i couldnt think of any!!UGHhhh...

blues

2009-01-20T00:04:00.002+08:00

a new semester has begun.
and here i am, starting to get busier, get lesser and lesser sleep, get bombarded by the idea of future unforeseen stress and uncertainties.
i felt blue for no reason today.
but not actually for no reason, i believe there is, just that ppl dont always wanna admit it and i hope things will turn out fine and i'll be okay.
im looking cheerful and bubbly as normal as i can, but deep down, something hidden inside me which i cannot explain bothered me.
what's wrong?
i have no idea.
i guess maybe i have been living all this while under this kind of strange mentality that i almost got immune to it and thus doesnt really go and think about it.
i cannot focus well, im always one.
at this rate, i wonder am i be able to survive this semester of 23 AU.
suddenly i feel evrything just doesnt go quite right.
i started to feel abit of regret but there is nothing i could do but to carry on.
fenwei is being very pessimistic and negative.
yet she projects an image of happiness and carefree.
at least sometimes.
ironic..

okay i shall not dwell on it for too long.
i have been neglecting my health and i actually got scared when i dont have any appetite today.
probably was because today was the first time i have overslept too much and missed the first 10 mins of the lecture.
wake up fenwei~
wake up from all the blueness and tomorrow is gonna be yet another shiny bright day.

be strong.

birthday celebrationss=)

2009-01-17T01:02:00.005+08:00

i had my best birthady celebrations this year=))
all so unexpected, truthfully~haha
first there were my msa friends=)
jiashin, tingyue, sinyee, weishan, jiayi, weiheng, zhenghong, chinseng, weihan.
on midnight of 15jan.
turned off the lights and holding a candle-lighted birthday cake, and with the unmistakable birthday song~
i totally didnt expect it, im serious!haha.
that time i remembered i was listening to songs and tried to print out stuffs halfway.hahaha
im extremely touched guys, thanks a mighty lots!!!(:
the chocolate cake was nice, and later we had some chattings till 2am in the morning=p
second was today.
my coursemates (most amcisa friends plus one spore friend(:)-eanwearn, yiyun, tinghong, chunrui, chenli, shijie, shunhao, sam, peixia, huimei=) told me we all gonna have lunch together at the quad before lecture.
AGAIN, im surprised in the end!
i really thought it was just an ordinary lunch, cos my birthday was over, haha.
then after we finished lunch, they held out a birthday cake and birthday song flooded me, the one who was laughing with wide open mouth*i was shocked*!lol
so this was the thrid birthday cake i had for this year's 20th birthday=)
it was a chocolate cake but was very hard texture, to me tasted like some kind of frozen ice cream, haha, but it was nice too~

so all in all, im really thankful to everyone who still remember my birthday~=)
the drawback is just that i havent celebrated it with my family, cos didnt go back for this weekend.
just now had a CNY Dinner organised by chinese society.
was quite exciting as the group i was in was super high*we won hamper!!*, at first i was scared of being alone, cos obviously 90% of the ppl there are from amcisa, whom i dont know much well cos didnt join any orientation camp:(, but luckily some of my coursemates were going so i just followed them.haha
knew some new friends and luckily i didnt feel much as an outcast, though i didnt talk alot, just enjoying the performances=)and also FOOD!!hahaha
cos always when im in a group that im not familiar with, when everyone else has known each other very much and talk stuffs that only they know, i tend to feel like an outcast and couldnt join in them as i hope, so i didnt often interact much, just stay there quietly, dont know whether to try to communicate with them or just keep my mouth shut.
haha.
im really a complicated creature i guess.
but who says none of the human beings are not complicated?
but sometimes i just meditate that am i thinking too much?
as in i should believe that things will eventually turn out fine.and stop worrying.
cos like what i remembered from sejarah tb during sec sch, there is one philosophy saying that all things in the world are fixed, we human race cannot do anything about it, as in come what may, and never to try to adjust or change anything, cos everything was fate and ur destiny.
*deep thinking*
aha!anyway, switch to another topic, lol,
so im basically still in spore to settle my stars planner on sunday, and to go ice-skating with my friends tmr=)
hope it will be fun and i wont lose my way=(
my parents were worried about me, so fenwei, you are grown up enough*gosh i cant believe i remind myself of my age when i told everyone else in the world to stop mentioning my age,lol* to take care of urself!!
not to lose my way, be careful, be watchful, make sure i know the way, dont simply spend money, return to hall early etc etc.
i wanna prove to my parents that i can really be independent!
and dont make them worry about me.
deal well with daily chores, studies, balanced up my life with other activities or sports but not forgetting my studies, dont procrastinate, be more hardworking, dont always lazying around doing nothing, cut down on time spent on internet*but sometimes i just couldnt help it!!!haha*, switch on study mode, be more outspoken, be more courageous to speak, meet new friends while building stronger friendship with my uni friends, be moderate, sleep early as possible as i can, take good care of health, sometimes dig out some time to read on aspiring storybooks(my eclipse still bookmarked till dont know which page havent finished since i came back sch, haix, haha), do more sports to decrease body fats level etc etc etc etc...
hahaha
basically just another great year!=)
hopefully better!
take note on solving my weaknesses, strengthen my good points.
i think this semester i will be overloaded=(
i might have 23AU, which means 3 electives.
currently i had - media in the modern world : social trends and popular culture
- eco-architecture in the urban living society
- magic of voice in the world of a singer
for the third one i just added it today, out of sudden saw the available vacancy. haha, but i dont know anyone taking this=(
i hope it wont be a difficult module neither=(
was at first thinking of taking foreign languages like jap or korean or french or spanish, but then come to think of it, i think learning a new language is so musch harder, as in you need to really spend time memorising new terms and pronunciations, initially i thought great interest in it can deal with all these problems, but..haix, i just still couldnt make up my mind now.
btw i had dropped the course named intro to psychology..
then seconds later it was already been taken up.haha
the reason i dropped it is because its exam date same as one of my core and the social trends thingy, plus i did terribly in the psychology tutorial.
everyone else is so well-versed, yes, except me.
i couldnt properly arrange my thoughts in line with my words=(
i think these can be reserved for next coming semester..
i even wonder if i can cope with 23au this semester~=(
help?
haix.
anyway, yesterday's genie zhuo wen xuan NTU sch concert was a great one!
i got place at front fourth row as my roomie and her friends queued up there few hours before the concert starts.haha
so i just sneaked in=p
we got good view, just that didnt get to shake hands with Genie=((
i must admit her live performance is really really superb!!!
BRAVO i should say!HAHA
she's sweet&slim, & sings well~
the host was ding zhi yong(if not wrong)from yes 93.3.
the concert lasted for about one hour, with quite a number of genie's songs.
basically i find that our response, as in the audiences, haha, was quite enthusiastic, but can be more energetic.hehehe
apart from singing, there was also some interviews kinda Q&A conversation btwn genie and zhiyong, then also a small game session where three guys were appointed from the crowd to sing a love song(originally by cao ge)with genie.
the whole procedure was an stomach-aching amusement.hahaha.with alot laugh stock esp by the last participant which i heard is a senior from msa.LOL
anyway, i hope NTU can hold more concerts like this.haha.
yesterday's one the lecture theatre was like fully packed, some still need to sit on the floors.
i didnt get to take clear pics and actually was banned from taking photos.
but i got to snap some blurry image of the star=p

genie's fansclub members

outside LKC lecture theatre

jiashin~

zhiyong

GENIE=)

btw i didnt get to go gelang patah resort today evening with susu they all=(=(
hope they enjoy themselves~

&&i; try to upload my birthday pics once i got hold on them=)

think that's all for now.
this is a long post indeed.
haha.
treat it as some kinda memorable post for my 20th*nah not again,haha*birthday!=)
**i dont want to look older, but i wish to be more mature**
lol

p/s:one of my birthday gift=)
thanks weekeat!!(:i like the cookies~~hehe

wanna end my post with some random pics of ADM(Arts, Design and Media School), which i have two of my electives classes here(:
luckily they didnt bring me to push me down the pool there as they did to the birthday chad.haha

-

2009-01-14T01:10:00.003+08:00

i hate making decision.
especially when im facing choices in a dilemma.
now i understood what do ppl mean by it's always easier to be said than done.
*pls pls what i can do now is pray for the best*
there are lotsa things on my tiring mind right now.
studies, friends, electives, timetable, exam schedule, cca, etc etc
mixed feeling indeed.
i wonder why my mood swings like this second im laughing and being crazy, the next moment im down with blue symdromes and wrapped myself up.
i dont know what to do, how to do it even if i know the way out.
show me the way, can anyone?
i know the ultimate decision is in my hand and i have to bear responsibility upon it.
so should i depend on the unknown luck now, or to give up totally?

现实永远总是那么残酷

i agree.

hope for a better tomorrow~

p/s: got myself a free goodie bag which i think weighed around 1kg *just being exaggerate, lol, but it's really heavy and contain alot goodies!!!* from Nanyang Arts Festival today. was quite a new experience as i did a health check up, by just using their sophisticated weighing machine, and having some promoters to promote their healthcare products after the check up (oh no im over-weighed and have too high body fats, TT, need more exercises). besides, there were awesome jazz performance, diabolo and a few that i missed. there were also lotsa small cute stalls selling various artworks like designed clothes, notebooks, bookmarks, keychains, accesories etc etc. and i got caught red-handed by the tutor in jap class as i attended it without prior registration (obviously im super fed up and vexed and frustrated and giving-up-hope and headache over all these electives stuffs). so embarassed but luckily no one else except me, tutor, and my friend know.=S

do u believe in destiny?*random*

a surprise

2009-01-11T15:11:00.004+08:00

last friday i had a BIG SURPRISE!
an ordinary lunch at jurong point turned out to be my first early birthday celebration=))
at first, when zz asked me about what i like and questions like "er do u prefer choco or fruits" etc kinda questions, i guess maybe he's organising some birthday celebration, haha.
so when i asked him why and he refused to told me the reason, i blurted out that is it u guys are gonna celebrate my birthday on friday, lol, he sort of discouraged and i was half-amused and half-sorry for "revealing" the birthday plan.hahaha
and so i told him that shuhui is also gona have her 24th birthday on 12Jan, which he doesn't know, and i suggested to celebrate our birthdays together, and and since i already knew the "plan", so let us instead give shuhui a BIG surprise too!*cos she doesn't know we are going to celebrate her birthday too at that moment(:*
SEKALI zz told me that he had a change in plans and said we are not going to celebrate birthdays on friday, just for lunch.
which i took it as real.
and little did i know that he and another friend of mine, peishan, was actually still planning to celebrate our birthdays on friday!!
LOL
so on friday me, shuhui and peishan headed off to jurong point.
met zz at the train station.
and we went pizzahut to have our meals=)
*the baked rice was nice and different from msia!i doubt if they serve them in msia outlets.and their specially-brewed mushroom soup is brown in colour, and i wonder if i am "sua-gu" cos i remembered pizzahut's mushroom soup to be creamy white in colour, haha, so i find it kinda unique=p*
after we had our meal and continued to chit-chat our way, nah, here came the "plan"...
the lights in the restaurant were suddenly switched off, with only a few yellow light bulbs lighting up the place, creating a so-called "romantic" atmosphere, LOL
and then in the midst of puzzle and confusion, the waitresses held in their hands a palm-sized birthday cake and walked out from the back kitchen, singing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" along their way.
but at that time, the "blur-queen" me still didnt know what was going on and shot out a stupid question at my friends : whose birthday???
*rolled-eyes*--for now
and then they were walking towards our table, with almost all of the other customers eyeing our direction.
and set down the birthday cake in front of me and shuhui.
i could imagine my stunned childish look at that moment.
*i bet shuhui was more surprised than i was cos she didnt even know we were going to celebrate her birthday, at least it was it before i thought they really had changed their plans!haha*
i was TOTALLY SURPRISED!!!
couldnt re-arranged yet my expresion back to normal but i thanked them alot!!!=)
okays, zz and peishan, u guys won and i really got a shock!
BWAHAHAHA
or maybe i was just too "innocent" and simple-minded, HAHA, cos i seriously didnt expect it!
anyway, they also bought me a prezie=)
love it very much, is a purple wallet=))thanks heapss!!
and so the outing, to me honestly, was a veryvery special occasion.
cos i never had my birthday celebration this way, in a restaurant, and with people singing birthday song to me, except with my family.
so i really appreciate it a whole lot!(:
a beautiful memory it will be(:

some pics to share=)

birthday cake with hazelnuts=)

birthday girls=)

i was the oddball doing silly gesture=((HAHA

bakat models.HAHAHA

imitating Stefanie Sun in the adv, "unsuccessfully" LOLXX

peishan!you can be a really good model!tall and slim and charming=)))
*we should send this pic to a model agency, haha*

didnt realise me and peishan both wearing shirts with stripes.hehe

the black-shirt duo--zz and shuhui.haha

looking forward to another yet wonderful week!=)

goodluck for NTU OPEN HOUSE helper interview on coming tuesday :SS

-

2009-01-07T17:13:00.002+08:00

卓文萱 is coming to NTU=)
though im not her very hardcore fans, haha, i went to redeem tickets to her concert at NTU using matric card. each card for two tickets, so one for me one for rommie jiashin=)
her concert is on my birthday i realised~
7pm at LKC lecture theatre.hope will be a fantastic one!
the queue was long, but not as long as i expected it to be. my friend quickly called me at 1130am(the ticket distribution starts at 12noon)and told me the crowd was already flooding, so i rushed from library2 after my QET. haha.
and talking about QET, luckily the essay question i tried it before during a-levels GP lesson.lol.so hopefully can pass and we will get to know our results by next monday, which indirectly mean that i might be able to add language course, either jap or korean=))
BUT again, need to wait for vacancy=(
it's really something that's out of our control, sadly.
and right now im so damn frustrated and confused as which electives to take=(
though the dealine is 18jan, but i hope can settle this whole thing even before that, cos i hate the trouble and all the fuss about this add-drop thingy~
really really loathed it=((
now i have a dilemma, i have added three electives - asian film history, socail trends&pop culture, intro to psychology.
the thing is, both psycho&pop culture exams fall on the same day as one fo my core subjects, and both these electives, as according to lecturers and the course info, need alot alot of reading and is not an easy course.
i know there's hardly any course that will be easy, but if i were to get three electives this sem, i hope to get easier ones, so that i can cope with it, together with my four core and one lab.
if not, i might as well choose to have only two.
which i hope wont fall again on the same exam date.
as for the asian film, i think the lessons arent started yet, so couldnt decide.
but again the timeslot sucks
in this way : i have lab from 230-530pm, then straightaway 530-830pm for this asian film.
what more, the classes are at different places which need like at least i think 15-30mins to reach.
SIGHZZ.

*im sorry for being long-winded and complain alot now, GRRRRR~~~*

and i couldnt add anymore electives now cos already over the max AU allowed, which mean if i wanna change, i need to be super duper fast to first drop the unwanted subject, then add the new one, before anyone else grab the new one away.
but i scared the high chance of that after i drop it, i cant be quicker than others who also happened to want to add the new one at the same time, and then end up with the previous dropped course might be taken away, and ill be left without any, neither the previous one nor the new one.

complicated huh?

haix, alright, enough of vexing, i need some refreshment.

明天会更好吧~

untitled

2009-01-06T22:44:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just dont understand myself.
to follow the crowd, or to do it my way.
to be loud and outspoken, or to be inferior and keep things to myself.
to be at the centre of attention, or to be unnoticed and ordinary.
to be here, or to be there.
to be myself, or to be one of the rest.

life is full of choices.
at least sometimes it is.
to make the right decision,
i have always been wanting to trust my instinct, but more often than not turn out to be the otherwise.
self-conflict.fighting with the inner voices.

i dont like today.
i couldnt get the courses i want, though i know there must be opportunities coming the way towards the end, yet i failed to wave off the feelings of undecisiveness and impatience.
i couldnt find my place in class, to where i belong, so i have been acting nomad.
i carry the responsibilities in a committee like the rest, but doubt if i can do it well and not to be sorry to myself.
i hate the pre-exam feelings, i asked myself to study but couldnt really bring it to the surface.
i hate having bad and negative feelings when i dont know the reason for being like this and what has gone wrong with me.
i envy people having fun and exciting life but im having a dull and non-productive one.
i wanted to join and participate in lotsa stuffs which are hovering in my mind but i couldnt find the courage nor the initiative to start right head on.
i yearn to do alot of things which time and circumstances dont allow.
i couldnt stay focus during lectures though im totally awake and couldnt find the source for my perpetual distraction.
im having bad memory.
im cracking my head on this post but nothing much came up.

so i decided to stop now.

p/s: all the best and good luck to everyone having QET tmr~

nites.

f.i.r.s.t. day

2009-01-05T13:20:00.002+08:00

first day of semester 2.nothing much happened.as usual and ordinary as the other days.just came back yesterday.did some cleaning up with help from mum and dad.teeheez.next time i wanna try to tavel myself to and fro singapore.must learn to be independent=)though i know pama must be doting me alot(:after spending a whole lot of holidays in doing nothing much except watch tv, hang out with family and friends, online, spring-cleaning, read twilight series(A MUST!!haha), i need to faster get back to my schwork and stuffs.HAHA.been starting to read some articles to prepare for my upcoming QET, sighx, hopefully still can write a good essay;( as a result, need to postpone a tiny bit my reading of Eclipse.HEHE.i must be turning into an OTAKU already.haha.&&wanna catch up with Iljimae and some anime(Skipbeat!), some soap opera(ghost whisperer!!) and recently have been addicted to some old movies(nah obviously i watch too much tv at home, haha)like Underworld!bwahahaha..first day of school, realised that things and everyday-chores that i get used to in last sem are slightly gone..lol.hmm put it this way, like last might, after the cleaning up and wanted to go bathe, i forgot to bring along my towel and need to retreat to my room to get it. i forgot to bring my sweater to lecture today. i forgot to switch off the switches last night. haha. i hope the list wont go on;p i need to be less forgetful!haha.anyway, new year new resolution. i hope i can have better and better semester ahead;) live life to the fullest, enrich myself, improve myself, get a life!HAHA.so there are some activities that i wanna sign up;)e.g. maybe ill go for the interview for helpers and ambassadors for coming NTU OPEN HOUSE;)i guess i must be shy, cos i tend to ask around whether my other friends are joining before i actually click on the button.haha.so yea i hope this is a way to enhance my PR=)HAHA.okays i think that's all. i just need more luck and opportunities=) pray that i can get the electives that i want during add drop period. pass my QET so that i can take foreign language electives. start switching to schlife mode. be more hardworking. memory leaps. all in all all the best!HAHA. just as the saying goes, plans never catch up with changes. human desires are unlimited yet we have only limited resources.

well i would better stop here=)

-life moves on-

redbox outing(:

2009-01-02T19:49:00.003+08:00

yay finally~
haha.the urge to sing has ultimately been fulfilled!BWAHAHAHAH
thanks for shuying's accompanyment, toobad susu dear couldnt make it=(
nevermind next time hun!!=)
*but there is already price rise starting from 2009 i guess=(*
next time bring more friends, cos if two person they only provide 2 hours(actually less than that, they cut short five min earlier, hmphh not sufficient~~~hahaha, i must be craving for singing karaoke for too long a time already, lol)

=)

p/s: shuying pls pardon my lousy "awesome" driving on the way back alright;p

time for improvement~~~
*btw i managed to get only one elective in my course registration:((i need at least two!or three if i wanna catch up;( pls let me get them during add drop period~~=((*

new year | new aspirations

2008-12-31T16:04:00.003+08:00

COUNTDOWN to 2009!
today is the last day of 2008.
look back all the time, yet another year gone.
leave behind all unnecessary worries, look forward to a brand new year with brand new experiences and lessons(:
hopefully.LOL
this also means the starting of semester 2, and yet im still immersed in my day-dreaming holidays~HAHA..*wake up fenwei!!*
quite nervous and feel a tiny bit of uncertainty dont know why.oddball.haha
keep it up for next semester!!
actually quite relieved when i got my semester 1 results few days back.
econs was worst but luckily i didnt fail.pheewww~;)
congrats to the rest too!!hehe

anyway, went for some games yesterday.bowling(: with dear susu and her bro.
saw king driving on our way there.haha.susu dear sure has very good eyesight;p
we played two rounds.
as usual, i scored badly;( bwahahahah
my scores got worse as we played further.haha.but well done susu!

first round (upper row my scores;p)

second round

susu

me

a cute lil ang-mo boy playing with his family.me and susu were attracted by his amusing and adorable movements.toobad didnt catch his movement;p

im looking forward to redbox outing with my girlfriends=))
hopefully everyone can make it!!
craving for sing-K now.HAHAHAH

alright, wish everyone has a fabulous new year~~~

p/s: got myself into some gardening stuffs under mom's influence;p though i have never love gardening, but imagine the euphoria and sense of satisfaction when u see the plant that you planted grow taller and prettier day by day!!

&&i wanna learn do seafood platter and baked rice from shanlei!help~~~

updates updates!

2008-12-27T21:59:00.002+08:00

i actually dont have the idea how my holidays were spent during past few weeks since my last post.LOL
it was like a blur and just flashed past without much details.
maybe im too slacking at home;(
everyday sleep until almost noon=X
really enjoy these kinda relaxed life without stress and sleep and rest and do my own stuffs as much as possible.
but..this does offer drawbacks.haha
cos it's like almost a week's time to my semester starting and seriously im still in this very holiday mode!
and i havent prepare anything for my coming QET.HAHA
it's been awhile since i last wrote essays and really scared about the test though others told me that it's easy to pass the paper.
maybe will start reading some articles just before school reopens.LOL
cos im still reading my favourite book series--Eclipse (:
&&my semester results will be out on 29dec!!!
OMG which means just two days away from now!!=S
im damn anxious and worried!
hope everyone's hardwork will be paid off with good results!!*fingers-crossing*

btw i got rejected by NUS.
i was actually halfway expecting it cos it's around end of december already and i havent received any news.
got the news yesterday when i checked my application status.
to say that im not disappointed or sad is like kinda betray my own feelings, haha, but i did feel abit of disappointment and sadness when the page faced me with the words-"ADMISSION DENIED"
without reason.
but it's okay, nevermind, im lucky and feel contented enough to be in NTU:)
and this is really my confession, though, haha=)
yeap so ill continue to study hard&play hard there!
congrats to weihan cos he got accepted to engineering*and he sounds very happy to leave us,lol;)
anyway just all the best and good luck to him!

anyway, apart from staying at home and helped out in spring cleaning and some gardening, i went to ms.jade's wedding ceremony last saturday:)
gorgeous is the word i will use to describe her, including all the deco and stuffs.hehe
the ceremony was at full gospel church in the morning.
met up with dear papa shauchong, some a-levels juniors(shupei and the rest i forgot their names, teeheez), student ambassadors, jasmine my cousin aka the "ban-niang", and some of the staffs working at sunway.yeap and i saw trecia and ms.how too!too pity didnt get the chance to talk to her, she's still so skinny after giving birth to her baby;p
wish all the very best and happy wedding to ms.jade!=)
i think she must be having her honeymoon now?lol

yeah, and yesterday went for TOUCH RUGBY with my high school friends=)
it's nice to meet up each other.
shuhui, tian, ting, huiru, chiamun, shanlei, king, bryan, alex, mok, kenneth.
and i LOVE the game actually!
though i just roughly know how to play as im a first-timer there.HAHA
and i think i did some stupid act during the game, cos i kept forgetting the rules and how to play etc, but gradually was learning quite okay though, LOLx
if there's touch rugby club in NTU i hope i can join!haha, not that i heard of, and i also wanna play volleyball or join archery club, u know, to balance up the hectic studies lifestyle and sweat it all out sometimes, hehe.
perhaps until Year 2 starts.cos for semester 2 i dont think they accept new member:X
and talk about semester 2, i hope i can get the electives that i want!and cope well!
hmm.
and also pray for a better and more exciting life there:)
be more outspoken, mature, and sociable.
cos i think sometimes i really dont know the best way to express myself and in the end sometimes things just go the wrong way.
but i guess the more important thing is to be yourself.
sometimes i doubt myself, why am i acting this way and not the other way round like the rest can do, im frustrated, but i have to accept that that's me.
confused eh?
yeah.
me too.
i dont really know what am i talking about now.
:-S
okay so just stop here.haha.nah i guess this is what i mentioned that im not quite able to express myself properly so...yeap just drop it.
no point dragging on and on when i cant really understand myself.now.
so i shall stop here
rather abrupt eh?
haha.
well i promise a better post next time:)

TWILIGHT~~

2008-12-16T16:13:00.004+08:00

FINALLY..
i got to watch TWILIGHT the movie~=)with mum and lil sis at jusco yday!
they should really shoot it for longer hours!
haha.
cos i felt that it lacks a lil bit details and has changed some of the story in the movie.
and no subtitle!LOL*but overall was quite okay cos i have just recently read the book=p,but those that dont might enounter some problem catching up with the plot=X*
and honestly i like the movie=))
quite as much as i love the story*wink*HAHA
robert pattison is charming!!he really has that kind of dangerous monsterous look, yet handsome and charisma as ever!*his dad, carlisle, never lose shine to him though!!!=D*
&&kristen stewart is very pretty too!
both are absolutely pale!LOL
i cant wait to finish my second book and proceed on to the third and the fourth book!!!

anyway, after the movie, me and sis hanged around in jusco while mum went supermarket to buy some grocery.
met jiachang and talked to him awhile there!quite surprisingly.haha.
he was shopping with her aunt's family, long time din see him, not much changes=)
i can see how much i miss my secondary sch friends and college friends.
time really flies.
and this reminds me that i too went out to meet some of my secondary sch besties last friday=)susu,tian,emma,siaoting=)
i like the feeling of catching up, girls' talks, shopping, and just wandering around with friends.
some of them with big changes, some not much, some not at all, haha, just like me=p
though we might not talk to each other as much as possibly can than last time, i still love the feeling of gathering=)
it's pretty hard to have chance to meet up with friends and all.
not when time passed and evryone is like having their own life somewhere in the world.haha
grateful for that=)
perhaps we might not have this kinda chance anymore, at least maybe not that often, when evryone has gone into uni and heading different places, study or work or etc.
so must cherish these moments!HAHA
im being nostalgic~
couldnt help it=p

so back to the day, we went for lunch at kenny rogers using some vouchers that dad has gotten somewhere=)
the quarter meals are yummy!haha
and so yeah, the day ends=)
i was too tired to make it for today's outing with shuying, susu and emmma at CS.
somemore mum needs to me help out in housechores, maybe it's really time to continue the cleaning.HAHA
sigh nex time round i guess, ill make sure i make it to meet u guys up!haha
maybe go K at redbox!!*whooottsss~it's been forever since i last went karaoke, hehe*

my gorgeous mum=))

which one should i eat first huh??=p
*hmm i really look strange in my new specs :S LOL*

me and sis
*we do fight often, but i think we love each other=)*

twilight=)

-i have never given much thoughts on how i would die, but dying in the hands of someone i love isnt a bad way to go-

*couldnt remember the correct whole sentence, but it sounds like that, i love it:)*

cant wait for the showing of New Moon!!!
-it will be as if i'd never existed-

to be continued...

as a tourist in spore=P

2008-12-14T17:51:00.010+08:00

went back to spore last wednesday and thursday.
quite a fun trip XD

-wednesday-
went SBS to settle my course registration for next semester with my friends, shuhui and zz..at first thought of going out campus for a trip right after the registration which started at 130pm, in the end got stuck halfway cos i couldnt add foreign language electives, which is japanese or korean that i would really really wanna take for next sem, just due to the fact that i have not taken and passed QET(Qualifying English Test) which is a compulsory for every international student if im not wrong..*big sigh*..late entry students do miss out alot.i hate this.hopefully i will pass my QET and the results being released before the add drop period ends..*fingers-crossing*..that's the last chance for me if i were to take jap or korean in next sem~..so yeah, in the end we settled this and got out of campus around 3sth-4pm..hehe.luckily i did this registration thingy back in spore, and got some help from officers and friends, if not i really dont know what to do.
hope evrything goes smoothly~*as i just planned another new timetable, few days ago, which took me hours to just to make evrything fits in and without any clashes in the timetable and exams.pheewwws!!!now what i gotta do is to pray and wait and hopefully can get the electives that i want=)*

so here are pics from the outing!
*im like a tourist, first time, in spore*
LOL
and can u imagine it, though i have been in spore for almost four-five months, i have hardly and rarely travelled out of campus to explore new stuffs and places in spore!!!*tsktsk too busy too busy*
thanks to shuhui and zz the sporean!!hahahaha:)

me and shuhui;)

the river that we saw after we are out of raffles mrt station*i forgot the name=X*

in front of the old theatre*where the esplanade thetre has replaced it*

ferris wheel~~*we are standing at part of the route for F1 racing*

esplanade!!*can ya see it??=P*

top view from esplanade!*awesome~~*

outside the artistic library=p

say cheeessseee=)

gosh!irresistable FOOODDD~~~satay, char kuay tiao, fish n chips=)))

next we went to an Italian Cafe=))
using the 50bucks voucher thanks to zz!!LOL

SPLENDID view from the roof top seats of the cafe=)
and i sweared we took pics so excitedly like lil kids XDD

the name of the cafe@restaurant
*cocktail, cakes, desserts=yumyum~*

me with cocktail=D *can u see the ferris wheel behind?=)*

kids talent show competition!they are INCREDIBLE ive gotta say!!

merlion

some camera trick=p though not pro enough.LOL

scary~~~=D

the so-called "love-bridge"--ai qing qiao

the bridge in night view

breath-taking

the Fullertone hotel

i love the thrill of standing in the middle of the road=PP

trying "hard" to push the big xmas tree.HAHA

wow there are so so so many pics that i wanna upload!!!
perhaps next time!HAHA.

-thursday-
went jurong point to watch "the day the earth stod still" with my friend.
not really the movie of my type i would say.LOL
then at night had some hall event which is the store-clearing for business manager sub-com.
and then followed js's car back to jb=)

kla, think that's all.
till then.

time for some updates=)

2008-12-08T16:08:00.009+08:00

yeap my poor bloggie..
it's been a long while since i last updated.hehe
despite the sudden free-ness and euphoria that exams are finally over, laziness seemed to overwhelm me, haha, making me lazy enough to update.HAHA
anyway, i was back homw*YAY~*right after the last day of my exam.
pama and surprisingly my lil sis*as she seldom followed to visit me at spore,lol*came to fetch me.
OBVIOUSLY i need to "shift" almost all of my belongings in my second home--hall, back to home sweet home.
haha.
actually i have no need to shift them all, it's just a one month hols.lol
il need to bring them back again when the new term starts@@
all of these are because ive shifted too many things there~HAHA.it's like having digged out a more-than-needed large part from my own home to spore.my parents were like *jaw-dropping* and *eyes-rolling*, especially my dad.
haha.
he warned me not to bring soo much things back to spore when sch starts.HAHA
*but i couldnt help it XD*

anyway, i went with my family to KL on the first saturday when i was back.
stayed there till monday, which was 1 dec.
to pay a visit to my relatives at damansara.
my grandma's sis was sick=(
i still can vividly remember how healthy and cheerful she was back then when i was still a small kiddo.
she would visit us from KL almost every year that time.
each time bringing us xmas prezzie, so lovely as ever..
now she looks aged, but luckily she's still cheerful and happy to see us all=)
really pray for her to get well soon~
anyway, besides the visit, we did hang around for shopping=)
like One Utama and The Curve.
not really shop alot though, as i thought i would cos it has been like forever since i last went out gai-gai,lol.
got myself a dress=)
&&i had my best meal ever in KL~~
cos relatives treated us Spanish meal!!which was soooooo yummilicious=)
HAHA
that was the first time i tried SNAIL!
*i was too engrossed in the food until i forgot to snap some candid pictures of food=P*
-toasts with olive oil and diff kinds of sauces, salads, seafoods, mussels, potato wedges, spaghetti, lambchop, etc..&&the last dish was like "fried rice", i forgot the name of the dish*apparently i cant understand even a word in the menu, LOL*, which was also very mouth-watering!and i find that in most of their cuisine, they use tomatoes=)-

pictures to share=)

first night at one utama hotel~

performance at the lounge

the hotel is just beside the famous tv station

say cheesezzzz XD

our second night was at Royal Bintang hotel.
where it is linked directly to The Curve, Ikano, Cineleisure etc
there were also streets with stalls where u can shop for, more like pasar malam and bugis street, hehe
beautiful flowers~*on the way to The Curve*

xams is around the corner!!!

nah this is the restaurant@bar for the splendid spanish meal!!=), which is just beside Pavilion Kl at bukit bintang area

&last friday went out to meet dearest Janet~~~
she has just come back from Australia!
it has been soooo long since we last went out together!
and i was so very happy and excited to see her~LOL
and we had a nice girls' day out that day, and im very surprised to receive some souvenirs from her=)thanks janet hon!

wish her all the best in whatever she does~=))

&&last saturday went back to pontian for grandpa's birthday.
on the way..*as usual the two of us-me and my younger lil sis will take all kinds of funny and "sweet" pictures, to chase away the boredom during the journey, lol*
below is considered the "normal" one.HAHA

hmm i think that's all for now.
really hate it to have to write so long for many events that have taken place.haha.especially when the events had occurred for quite some time already.it's like need to dig out the details again to write about them.lol.
this should encourage myself to update as often as possible.HAHA!

okays, should stop here=)

more to come~

2008-12-07T14:06:00.002+08:00

I WILL BE BACK XD

soon=)~

take care everyone!

*bella's lullaby by edward cullen=))*
-river flows in you-

;)

CYRIL TAKAYAMA is awesome!!!!

2008-11-18T02:18:00.002+08:00

this is way too COOL~~
gosh!LOL
u guys should check this out!AMAZING~
*magic magic*haha

*this one is making me feel soo hungry~rameeennn~~haha*

three down, two more to go~

2008-11-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

haha.
finally..
left two papers!*which are also the hardest=(*
LOL
now just trying to take a break and get alive~haha
must really make full use of the remaining 9-10days.*as i tend to slack more than concentrate with computer around, haha*
hmm today's org chem was quite okay, at least better than the last two which i totally messed it upTT
managed to finish except one synthesis que, the annoying part was that until the last minute only the solution like popped up into my mind, and by that time, the invigilator already stood by my side to collect my paper~
ish..
haha
alot ppl are saying that this paper was easy though=X
i find that keeping a clear mind and be calm is of utmost importance before entering exam hall..that's so true..haha,,rather than trying to squeeze all info last minute, like what i did last few papers=(
so yeap let's pray that the same occurs for coming ones=)
oya btw, last saturday we classmates had an appointment with one of our org chem lecturers-Dr.Eric to ask question
frankly, i have never met such a nice lecturer, who are willing to spend his saturday, went to uni, just to help us to solve our problems..
really really thankful to him..
*hope that i really did score well today, at least as sth like a gift for his willingness to teach and guide us=)*
he even ate lunch at canteenA with us~
LOL
&that was the first time i tried the famous Indonesian Panggang which all my friends are suggesting me to try that out because it's so "irresistable".HAHA
and true enough, its grilled chicken chop was nice and yummy~haha
then while eating, we chatted all the way with profesor until we almost forget the time..HAHA
he's indeed helpful and let me think of that kind of "papa" feeling..
LOL
heard from my friends that he's from Hong Kong, at first i thought he's Singaporean.haha
kla, that's all for now=)

kampate!!

loves=)

~~~HSM3

~~~Vampire Knight Guilty

nites..*yawnxxx*

first day of exam..

2008-11-13T01:33:00.002+08:00

first day of exam?
wouldnt wanna make it like a BIG deal..
*hey yeah who doesnt have tests and exams before huh??*
haha
but it really matters ALOT now.
cos i TOTALLY SCREWED UP today's intro bio and econs..=(
sighx.
no point crying over spilled milk, there is no need to remind me of this.
but..
im really disappointed with my performance today.TT
alot studied already but forgot almost all of them during exam.
what happened to my brain??
*seriously having brain deterioration now..*
i guess maybe i was too stressed up, cos after the tests, when i tried to think back, i actually remember some of the stuffs i should have written down in the papers..
and yet i couldnt remember a single word today.
to be truthful i was panick-ing during the exams..
cos always not enough time to finish..
and true enough, this is what happened today
somemore i was late for both tests like for 5mins?*FAINT*
one was i didnt know they already started as my watch obviously slower than theirs=X
another was i couldnt find the entrance to the BIG exam hall!*eye-rolling*
so by the time i settled down, some precious time was gone..
i could have done better.
i have never felt this kinda discouragement during my entire schooling times.
something must have gone wrong in me..
im really scared and dare not to think of the day to get my results.
*i dare not i dare not~*
what to do?i can only pray and do the best for all the coming exams..
2-3more weeks to go~
*fenwei must get back her spirit and study hard!!*
just hope that i wont be so forgetful anymore!

*im really such a procrastinator, till i always not enough time to finish things that i wish to complete in time.GRRRRR~*

and to "de-stress", i just watched downloaded HSM3!!!!!!
incredibly nice!as im such a HSM craze~HAHA
they were really awesome!!!
energetic and uniform dance choreography, catchy sing-along songs, loving and sweet couple of troy and gabriella, wonderful and happily-ever-after ending~
ALL ARE GREAT!!
kenny ortega is really a great director of this musical, not to forget the enthusiastic and fun and passionate bunch of teenagers!!
=D

*i would end my night today with sweet dreams on HSM~*HAHA
im just "over"-exaggerating!haha

okay.
promise myself to work hard for the coming org chem test!!
*i already seeing the huge amount of chemical mechanisms coming my way~~*
my brain, pls be prepared..

=S

XD

--exam mood swing period--=X

2008-11-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

countdown.
three more days to the start of my semester1 exams.
been very busy studying over these days.
sighx~
till a stage where there isnt any mood left for studying and met a kinda bottleneck situation..
loneliness especially when roommie jiashin is not here with me this weekend.
she went back..
though we dont keep talking in room as normally after we back in room, we would start doing our own stuffs, but the "invisible" companionship is there when she's around.
at least u know someone is there.
and pia-ing and mugging for exams..
no matter how i study, my speed is always "under optimal".haix..
study too slow is one thing.
but i always cant remember well sth as i need to read more times for sth new to be actually absorbed into my mind.
but the thing is, i dun have enough time..
*this sounds ridiculous but it's true in my case, haix*
seeing that the test dates are coming nearer and nearer and seem to overwhelm me, the more i feel like finding other leisure and entertainment amidst my studying..
eg like watching anime and shows, chatting on msn, online-ing etc!
HAHA
as a kind of relaxation=)

but mb it's because i still havent really adjusted to the lifestyle here,
plus i go home like for almost once a week,
the prospect of perhaps need to stay here for like nearly whole month kinda bother me..
haha
it's like having a dilemma.
want to go back but it's like a waste on time and effort in transporting to and fro while can make use of time to study or do other stuffs, and also the reason that, i dont study much but instead play and sleep alot at home!!HAHA
but if not going back, it's kinda boring here.
like no one to talk to u, *except the eating times with friends*, u r locked and isolated in a room with four walls plus "a window" *as if it matters, haha*
though i can actually concentrate better this way
just that easy to fall asleep=X
whenever mummy daddy video-calling me through msn, just feel like flying over back home..
haha.
n dont know why always have this kinda feeling of crying though i dont show up..
guess im still just a little child, wanting to grow up and be independent but still wanted to be protected under papa mama.
haha

kla just a post to vent out my feelings
been wasting some time here and there!!
need to rush up already!
im way behind otheresTT
jiayou fenwei!!!
all the best to everyone too!!!

我怎么了。。

2008-10-31T01:07:00.002+08:00

突然想用华文来写一写部落格。。。
哈哈。。
最近的我，感觉上很情绪化。。。
或许是因为考试压力
或许是因为讨厌自己在很多时候都做不了决定。。
就好像今天
为了不懂该什么时候回jb家，为了不懂要不要weekend留在宿舍读书不回家，为了应不应该把下礼拜的实验挪到明天，等等等的小事大事，而让自己在处于一种精神紧绷地状态。。
有时候会想，为什么自己会这样。。
为什么别人可以做到可以读到的东西我没时间做呢？
大考已经剩下差不多一个礼拜的时间了
我还没开始复习
只有一个“死”字能形容我现在的处境。。
每天都在忙lab reports，忙到有时候发现，哇！时间怎么过得那么快。。
好像我才刚来NTU没多久。
加上我读书做功课用的时间每次都比别人多上很多。。
一时因为怎么都看不懂的课文而想放声大哭。。
一时又逼自己一定要克服它。。
真是双重性格。。
我真的太不了解自己了。。
一大堆的化学mechanisms, 一箩筐的lectures notes, 堆积如山的tutorials, 更不用说看都还没开始看的past year papers。。
我真的很怕很怕。。
也越来越觉得我能不能够survive。。
有时候真是觉得力不从心
大概这就是大学生涯吧。。
看看seniors们都熬过来了。。
我希望我也能做到。。
我每次都说：biological sciences 真的不是人读的。。
哈哈
自从来到这里之后，发现身体越来越不健康了
时常被逼熬夜，然后记忆力也是每况愈下，加上生活作息也变得怪怪的
感觉上早上没办法集中精神上课，晚上又比之前来得清醒。。

唉。。。

烦啊～～

我想我真的需要某种心灵强行针。。
我这个人就是这样。。
提到读书，我还真的需要那种encouragement或者有种让我期待的东西，让我继续保持着动力。。
怎么说呢。。就好像之前在college,放学后去唱歌，或回家有很好吃很好吃的东东的话，那还蛮算是一种对我自己的encouragement..
哈哈
而在这里，其实好像没什么值得期待或者很开心很开心的事情
每天都做着同样的routine,闹钟被拔起床，早餐，上课，午餐，上课，放学，回到面对房里的四面墙，做点功课，睡觉。。
或者大家都觉得这样很理所当然。。
都说了我很奇怪。。
唉。。。
看，不知不觉又花掉了那么多该拿来读书的时间。。
没办法，真的想就那么让我宣泄一下下。。

最近也觉得有点小孤独落寞。。
*i must get used to this kind of self study*
there's nobody who can help u, except urself..
嗯真要加大把大把劲读书了
请保佑我。。。

S.I.C.K. :(

2008-10-19T21:46:00.004+08:00

im officailly sick..TT
i guess this illness got accumulated by these two months of lack of sleep&stresss&my surrounding friends got some already sick..
now my turn..
urgh..
yesterday evrything was perfectly fine..
UNTIL afternoon dont know why i started to feel the pain in my throat.
gosh!
then i was like thinking -- cham, evrytime if i started sore throat then the next step sure is fever and then flu!
luckily i feel better today=)
*thanks for all my caring and thoughtful friends!!!=)!~*
just that my throat is still pain n i feel fatigue and no mood at all..
feel like lazy to go out, lazy to eat, lazy to do anything..
just like wanted to rest&rest&rest like there're infinite hours in a day..
BUT i got MOUNTAINS of lab reports and econs quiz to do:((
i managed to do a TINY bit of one of the THREE lab reports which are to be handed in this coming week.
and now i just started on my econs quiz!like till halfway lecture2 and i got TEN lectures for test!!
OMG~~
and during days of laziness and "emotionless-ness" and "moodless-ness", cup noodles might be my best friend!
*LOL yeah im eating cup noodles now*

haix..

i hope i can get well asap!!
*attention to all immune cells and immunoglobulin in my body, please help me to fight off whatsoever virus/bacteria that is currently attacking meTT*
urgghhh..

and yesterday night went out for dinner with my friends..
we went to BOONLAY FOOD COURT which has lotsa food stalls until we didnt know what to choose to eat..haha
in the end the six of us ordered like 13 dishes!!!=D
-mapo wan tan mee, cheekong, nasi lemak, fried kuey tiao, mango+longan dessert, strawberry ice kacang, sambal kangkung, lala, fried rice, carrot cake etc etc*
quite fulfilling the meal.
just that i'll certainly eat more if i didnt sore throat=(
*cannot eat spicy cannot eat fried ones..ish*

&&now i damn PISSED off by some SHAMELESS & BRAINLESS THIEVES/VILLAINS who stole lingerie and undergarment from just outside my hall room!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG~~
and i was like damn BLUR and i just knew it after jiashin told me!!
and i TOTALLY didnt realise it when i hanged my clothes after laundry this morning!!
GOSH seriuosly too blur edi..
we suspect that they got disappear yesterday late night mb in the wee hours where evryone is sleeping..
and i swear im gonna lodge a complain to the hall management!
the thieves are really really inhumane and 变态!!!
DAMN PISSED~~~
×they are new and lots wei...*
and it happens to be so unfortunate that i didnt remember to bring them in..
ISH.....
they should get super BAD RETRIBUTION from what they did!!!
URRGGHHH...
*to think of it just only made me feel worse than illness*
WHAT HAPPEN TO HUMAN BEINGS IN THIS WORLD??

.....;X

org chem lab

2008-10-18T15:37:00.003+08:00

oya btw, today's org chem lab was quite a fun and interesting one!
we got to dye a cotton cloth with the dye indigo which we prepared by adding in lotsa stuffs and after many steps and spent like around 3hours++
haha
but the "output" was quite satisfying!
*YAY cheer with me my lab partner shuhui*
*i doubt if she knows my bloggie..haha*
we all just like to take pics in lab LAR..haha

the insoluble indigo dye pieces

me and the resulting dye cloth=D

shuhui and our resulting dye cloth=D

*navy blue cloth~
u r so lonely in this pic!!!
LOL im speaking nonsense again!!HEHE*

kla, really gtg!
more updates soon hopefully :X

lifeLESS, sleepLESS, MOREassignments and tests

2008-10-18T15:05:00.003+08:00

uni life is real hectic!
no need for me to repeat, haha, yeah it's true..
so i shall not blog about my busy-ness and the feeling of lifeless-ness here:(

to have some relaxing time and take a break to "enjoy", we this bunch of friends(me, jiashin, tingyue, sinyu, weiheng)went to have CANADIAN PIZZA for dinner on last thurs, which is just after my bio test!HAHA
it's NICE i gotta say!
its thin crust + BBQ sauce + cheesey small sausages + pepsi = HEAVENLY-MADE=D

*suddenly found that jiashin and tingyue really look-alike(see their cute smiless, HAHA), dont they??=P*

and yesterday went to this HANTU(Home Again at NTU)MSA&AMCISA gathering night=)
quite fun and we got free supper too!LOL
knew a few new friends and some of them are really hilarious!!HAHA

my sometimes "off" sometimes "on" big bro!haha
*see his weird pose--he might "haunt" me if he sees this..HAHAHA*
my family reunion = tingyue gorgor + xiaoyu jiejie + fake papa in KL =D

in the end we hanged around till midnight, by the time i finished bathing, it was already near to 1am!!!
haha
if i didnt have the super rushing org chem lab report to hand up today, i might join them for supper outside NTU!!!(hey this might be the first time to have supper outside NTU and i heard they mentioned a mamak stall called "xiao fang", which i totally had no idea where's it but the rest all knew the place..haha..)
and in the end i rushed my report till almost 4am in the morning!!
OMGOSH!!!
couldnt really believe that i actually survived!!!HAHA
but im the kind of person who is more alert and awake during night time, but sleepy and abit of absent-minded during the day time.haha
should i call myself a nocturnal animal???HAHA
and yeah imagine i went to brush teeth at around 4am=.='''
and got scared by a greenish insect positioned near the door knob to washroom :-S
and it was like everybody else had closed their room door and had this kinda eeery atmosphere!=D
btw dear jiashin really can tahan!
she's like studying till later than the time i went to bed(~4am) and yet she woke up today morning earlier than me!
WOW really big big salute!
*now im very blameful for myself cos it's like evrybody else has started revision for the final exam which is bound to attack us in a couple of weeks but im still slacking behind and tied down by all sorts of undone and postponed reports and tutorials....*
*really dying~~TT*

KLA, im really gonna start doing one of my reports edi
next week : 3 lab reports + 1 econs test :(
TT

more more more..

2008-10-13T21:30:00.003+08:00

yeah workload definitely becomes greater and greater here as time goes by:(
been overloaded with lotsa tutorials, lab reports, quizzes and midterm exams..
*head scratching and teeth biting~* :X
sighx..
it's really hard to imagine that i had actually been admitted to NTU around two months!!
*still adapting*
HAHA
&&cant really tell myself to face the reality that the BIG semester exams are coming!
in just another month!
know what, and this is what my friend told me and that i suddenly woke up from my dreamy and blurry state@@
HAHA..
last week, had my first midterm exam for organic chem.
i really scared that i would screw it up:X
&this week here comes my Introductory Bio quizTT
*dont ever think that the term "introductory" means something very general and basic, yea maybe it might sound that way, but this topic is real wide and i dont really know how to study for this course..somemore i always "fishing" in the lectures..TSKTSK fenwei ar..LOL*
mentioned about this sleepy syndrom, today i nearly missed my BS101 which is this Introductory Bio 830am class!!!
perhaps it's because i was charging my phone, which i used it as my alarm, and i put it quite "far away" from my bed, maybe that's why i didnt hear the alarm clock=.='''
luckily dear jiashin woke me up!
*imagine she can hear my alarm but not me~~oopss, haha*
everytime i woake up around 715am should i have 830 class.
and guess what!this morning i woke up around 740!!
GOSH.
i was rushing like nobody's business!
HAHA
except that i had no enough time to fill my water bottle and to wash my cup after drinking milo, haha, i managed to catch the so-called last bus and reached the lecture theatre just on time!:S
***
another problem bugging me is that i seriously had this morning-830am-lecture-sleepy syndrom!HAHA
i was like dozing off for the whole lecture!
and i couldnt help it!
feel quite bad actually but i swear that i already had enough sleeep!!
haix..
hope this wont wont wont happen again as i have 3days in a week where i have 830am lectures:(
***
yeah and yesterday was weihan's birthday:)
so me, jiashin and weishan went to celebrate with him.
kinda "lonely" birthday as only the four of us were there.LOL
but quite fun larz=P
the cake from Prima Deli is simply YUMMMMMMYYYYY!!!!!=)

the birthday guy weihan
*enjoy ur last teen year ba~HAHA*

see..like mickey mouse!HAHA

p/s : addict-ed to the Mr Bean's Rice Ball!!!
which only cost me 1.60 * tang yuan+soya juice+tou hua *
YUM YUMMMMM=)

oya and i passed the 歌咏组歌唱选拔赛＝））
out of around 17 participants, im one of the five that are selected=)
we might have the chance to perform in their event and during the Charity Drive=)
actually i just went for it out of mere interest, but the euphoria of passing the audition is still quite great:)
i sang 不想懂得 by 张韶涵=)
*fake papa pls stop calling me that nickname u r teasing me with though the others who passed are all china ppl k!ISH..*
haha
they are also great in singing=)
cant wait for any chance to learn from them and have performances=)

kla, fenwei!
stop dreaming!
GO STUDY GO STUDY~ :(

*streeeesssss*

more updates=)

BUGIS outing!=))

2008-10-05T23:21:00.004+08:00

yup met up with dear qiuhua and shuying yesterday in spore here!
just to realise that there are actually so many of us who are studying in spore!!
HAHA
at first wanna meet up oso with susu and other union girlgang..
but they couldnt make it:(
yanyi went to spore too but we didnt get to meet up as she went to sentosa and other diff places than mine with her college friends.
scared that she'll lose her way, so we didnt meet up=((
have to wait for the next time!!
WE MUST MEET UP ANOTHER DAY!!!
the main thing about Bugis is that the price for the goods there are cheaper compared to other places!=)
and there're HEAPS OF GOODIES!!!
clothes, shoewear, accesories, nail art, saloon etc etc~
*susu dont be discoraged, we'll sure go shop together at bugis someday!!!*
TEEHEEzz
so we three met up at jurong east mrt station.
and took around 30mins to reach bugis(actually i didnt really check the time as we were busy chatting and catching up stuffs=P )
after a day of shopping, we finally got ourselves sth!=)
we bought susu's prezie and i intend to give her a surprise then when i go bac jb nex week!HEHE
hope she'll like it=)
i bought a blouse, shuying did nail art, qiuhua did nail art too and bought other stuffs like bag and shorts=))
oya!&& the blouse i bought is checked in pattern, qiuhua bought her checked bag, while we also got susu a checked "stuff"..HAHA
such a coincident!
luckily that day i didnt get myself into any kind of MAJOR ACTION OF LOSING MY WAY.
HAHAHA
cos my parents also quite worried about me and called me by the time i was on the way back.haha

kk, fenwei!!
dont be such a slacker anymore!!!
exams coming their way!!
im gonna be super busy~~~*sighx*

updates...

2008-10-04T01:24:00.003+08:00

PHEEWWW~~~really feel like taking a break from the hustle and bustle of life here:x
im EXTREMELY busy!!
busy with lecture notes and tutorials
*i have four tutorials where the two pairs of them on tuesday n thursday and letures notes and homework and lab reports coming evrytime~*
it's NEVER-ENDING~
like i hvn figured out the previous ones, i met new problems with the current ones:(
and due to my "slack-ness", im really falling behind..
sighx.
the busy with activities..
like hall jcrc activities*which i really really do hope i can enjoy more and not like now:(*, BS club activities, chinese society board decoration etc..
just to gain enough points.
but im still not enough points to ensure my stay here..gosh
last week went back jb, had nice and super cheap spaghetti at cafe toast & toast!!
HAHA
*yummy~delicious favourite!*

and then this tuesday went NIE to have lunch=)
had this super cheap and yummylicious and fulfilling yong-tau-fu!!!
HAHA
at first wanna eat their famous western food, but im thinking to save money for susu's birthday and tmr's outing!!LOL
so gonna tie up my pocket these few days~

these few days really are bad luck days for me:(((
1. long story for thursday..
to summarise, i left my passport in hall this morning.that day i needed to verify
my documents, all prepared but stupid me forgot to bring it out.as i had classes
full day, i only managed to go to Student Services Centre around 415pm, which
it'l close at 5pm.halfway only i rmb that i forgot to bring my passport, then
i went ask one of the guys in charge, he said NVM though i assured him TWICE
that i forgot to bring my original passport.then i thought pheew, luckily ok.so
i sat down filling some form, then when i went into the room to let the officers
verify my documnts, she said CANNOT, MUST BRING PASSPORT!i was like WTH, then
that time already very late, arnd 445pm. then she said she'l wait me till 515pm.
i though might be able in time.sekali no bus!!then i was like WALK+RAN for like
nearly 15-20km*dunno if exaggerated, HAHA*for the whole journey from SSC to
hall15, hall15 back to SSC, then again SSC bac to hall15.
the story ending is that in the end i made it at 530pm
luckily they are still there though already off some lights
but what i got?
my heels and toes bleed and swollenTT

i really need to find one day to familiarise myself with places in uni.
i seriously need it.

cos i have the WORST sense of direction in the world=X

2. i forgot to refill my body shampoo until i got into bathroom and wanna start
bathed.
so what to do?dry my body and go back room again to take@@

3. late to tutorial as dunno where is the tutorial room for replacement class.
walked alot extra and unnecessary route again as i only know a few ways in uniTT

4. i wore the wrong slippers into bathroom
came out again to take=.=

5. forgot my water bottle in room only UNTIL i reached the second-first floor of my
block.
my room at level 3...=_="'

HAHA

anyway, yesterday went to hall 11 to celebrate yiyun's birthday!=)
we have had a surpise for her!
and indeed she was SURPRISED!!lol
we hid inside her room with lights off, when she reached room, we sang her happy birthday!
and we had very super duper DELICIOUS secret recipe choc+cheese cake!!
OMG I SWEAR SECRET RECIPE'S CHEESE CAKE IS REAL POWER!!
lolx..
then we chatted and hanged around and took pics and like woke up the whole hall residents as we were very noisy!haha

---more updates hpefully---

P/S: shit, im gonna try to fix my pc prob as i couldnt opened my cbox!!!
URGHHH...

pics to update:)

2008-09-22T15:18:00.005+08:00

..last saturday..

went to sentosa palawan beach for BS club's interaction day on saturday;)
had quite alot fun and knew quite some new friends there.haha
basically we played volleyball*yesh my favourite!!!HAHA* and frisbee.
as it had been very very long time since i last played volleyball(form2, haha), my hands got reddish and swollen and pain right after the game.HAHA
luckily my skills are still quite okay.hehe
all in all was quite an enjoyable moment.
after this gathering i didnt join them for dinner at vivocity.cos didnt know when pama coming to fetch me from ntu at night.
and luckily too i met a few indonesian new friends who also didnt join for dinner and goin back hall..haha

me&ean wearn

the frisbee~

the sunset..

..monday..
as mum already started a new job*but i guess she'll change work again cos the job environment there isnt that good, haha*, meaning no one at home to do those household chores, i have become like the "maid" at home..haha
like cooking, washing dishes*as usual*, go out tapao lunch etc..hehe
so this is the fired rice i cooked on monday
and i accidentally spoilt the cooking pan:(
the bottom like peeled off but luckily mum didnt scold me as she said the pan is of bad quality actually..
HAHA..pheewww~~
but i feel quite bad..
is like i cant even cook a proper meal:(
the rice was abit too dry but the taste was quite alrite..haha
taadaa~~

..today..
went back college to take my a-level statement of results and lan subject cert*though i didnt need it as i study in spore, haha*
met up with mshow and msjade..
mshow just had her babyboy*congrats congrats!!haha* and msjade showed me this year's annual ball performances*AWESOME!!!*
had some nice chat but too bad didnt get to meet up msjanice:(
and mschoo&mstan already not in college..
mschoo went to china with her husband while mstan got a better job advancement..
~memories~
sighz..

sorry~~

2008-09-20T21:59:00.002+08:00

dear friends out there~
i wanna make an announcement.
haha..
is that i dont know why my laptop cant allow me to click on my tagboard aka chatterbox..
everytime i clicked on the links at the right hand side, the webpage got crumpled and distorted:(
so i didnt get to reply u all!
feel very sad and sorry about it:(
i'll try to fix it asap!
hope u guys dun mind=)
keep in touch evryone!hehe..

farewell...

2008-09-17T20:51:00.003+08:00

yesterday went from ntu to changi to send hanley aka ahteo off..
he is going to study Law at University of Manchester..
neither tearful eyes nor sobbing, but only the best wishes and blessings for him..
*ah teo you must jiayou and take good care of urself there~*haha
studying alone in a foreign country can be tough and hard sometimes but brace urself up:)
like me, though i came late to ntu, though i suffer quite alot at the beginning, now actually im doing quite okay, despite the stressful studies and some intersocial relationship:(
fenwei also must jiayou!!
*and dont be lazy!!*HAHA
ya so back to the topic, me, weiheng&jessica took bus then mrt to changi airport..
reached there around 8sth pm, cos the journey was very long, almost 1.5hours!
then we went to meet up with tian, theresa, liyen, william, suria..
so we had dinner there and hanley's dad treated us:)thanks uncle!haha
after some chatting and photo-taking, we bade farewell to hanley as he and his dad went into the terminal..
was quite a 感伤 moment by then, i felt personally..haha
find that we are all very fortunate to have each other as friends..
though we never know if our friendship will last as long as we want, but we definitely care and wish the best for each other deep down in our hearts..
the friendship that i have with u all, i'll remember and cherish it with the rest of my life..
it's really hard to have good friends like i have during high school and college time..
i know it's time to move on and learn for myself, but i'll never forget this friendship that we have..really miss u all here..
*get over emo moments~*
so ya basically i missed my hall's business manager subcom meeting as i reached hall very late, by the time they already finished..
luckily nothing bad happened:-S haha..
but i missed the chance to get to know the rest of the subcom..
nevertheless, it's worthwhile:)
and then liyen and william came squatting at weiheng's place..actually they slept in the tv lounge..haha
we all had not enough sleep in the end..lol
and we had breakfast/lunch this morning at executive cafe here before me and jiashin went for lessons..
really appreciate and enjoy the time we had together:)

funny pic of me and the VIP of the day..HAHA

random pic of changi airport

kk, gotta do my "always-unsolved" tutorials:(
JIAYOU

tiring~~

2008-09-15T15:52:00.007+08:00

yeah im really really tired and exhausted these few days..
no to be accurate, this annoying "sleepy" syndrom starts bugging me since last few weeks..
sighz..
somemore i have 3days per week in which i have 830am lecture..
i always dozed off during the lectures dunno why:(
it's like im trying my very best to stay awake and listen and focus to what the lecturers are talking about but i just couldnt help it..
really hate this kinda drowsy feeling..somemore i need to catch up with the studies!!
oh no..
it's not as if i didnt get enough sleep(but maybe yes cos since i came here, my limit can go up to 1sth-2sth am..haha.which is quite trivial compared to others*duh*), but overall i get like 5-6hrs of sleep which should be enough..
aix..hope this wont happen that frequent again!!
*or maybe because the lectures are too boring~HAHA*
oya and these are the subjects i took in this semester:
1. Introductory Biology
2. Biophysical Chemistry(which is the one i most dislike cos it involves physics:( )
3. organic chemistry
4. biochemistry
5. lab(the experiments are from all the above 4 core subjects)
6. principles of econs(which is one of my electives, we late comers had no chances to changeTT, and also i missed the add/drop period where students can change their elctives, and i got less AU than my fellow coursemates:(, which means i have to take extra subjects as electives in the next sem to clear off my required AU, stress~~)
*sigh*

anyway, went for lunch with shuhui today(dear susu, i got a spore friend here who is also "shuhui", haha, but her chinese name diff from urs..teehee)at one of so-called high-class restaurant here named "executive cafe"..
haha, the food here are basically chinese cuisine like dimsum and restaurant style..
some are exp but some are also quite cheap!=)
e.g. i ordered a peanut porridge which only costs me $1.50!!
i tell you what, the food here are normally above $2, it's hard to get nice food beyond that price..haha

the executive cafe

my peanut porridge=)

btw had my lab today..
it's the first time i used spectrophotometer~
i was amazed as alot of my coursemates know how to use the device..
cos the lab lecturer didnt tell us what to do and how to function the thing..*what?!*

the dyes which we needed to put them into the device and measure its absorbance and wavelength..

mooncake from friend=)*thanks!!though it's from the leftover,HAHA*

oyaya, one thing i really looked forward to is that my hols is gonna start from 20sept!!
till 28sept!!
*hooray*

mooncake festival celebration=)

2008-09-15T00:31:00.004+08:00

NTU chinese society had organised its 中秋园游会 on last friday, and i attended this happy merry event with my friends=)
it was held at our uni's famous yunnan garden which is opposite to the Chinese Heritage Centre at NTU.
i heard ppl saying that the place is also open to tourists!!haha
so basically that day we saw alot foreigners and some china ppl(i doubt that they are not students or alumni here by their looks, haha), all having fun as there were not only various types of performances(like drama, singing, and the 变脸表演 etc) but also games stations where u could earn points, lucky draw which gave off laser printer, mp3, psp etc *WOW, haha* and the 许愿亭 where u could write down your wishes and tie them up to the strings attached to big trees there=)
there were also free drinks and some stalls selling fruits and ice creams!HAHA
&the place was superbly decorated!!with lotsa tiny little candles lined up along the pathways, lotsa beautiful lightings, and also the nice sculptures and monument and pagoda-kinda buildings at the yunnan garden!
all in all this is the first time i celebrated the mooncake festival away from home yet i enjoyed it a whole lot!!!=P

some pictures..

our free lanterns=)

the "make-a-wish" place..

wishes all tied up*colourful~*

my "wishes-envelope".haha

me and dearest jiashin=P

some little funny cutie kids playing around at the one of the games stations
*know what, there were lotsa hilarious acts done by these little kids whom i didnt know where they popped up from, haha, but they were really cute~lol*

the performance stage

anyway,...
*thanks so much for all my friends who brought me alot of smiles+laughters and also brightened up my stressful life here..especially friends from MSA who helped me alot as im a late entry student here and made me feel that im not that alone struggling to lead a life here..and also give me the feelings of "home"..&&also friends who are willing to help me in my studies..*though im still very lack behind seriously, sighz..but with the support from u guys, ill work very very hard to catch up!!and i just couldnt find a better word to express my thanks!!it's so nice getting to know u all and we take care of each other!i really appreciate u all as my friends and may our friendship never fade..=)*

much loves..

nite out~

2008-09-09T23:33:00.004+08:00

to de-stress myself, haha, i joined my friends for a playing-candles outing on sunday night!=p *so as to pre-celebrate mooncake festivals, haha*
the few of us, me, jiashin, sinyee, tingyue, weishan and her friend noel just went to the staircase area near hall 16 to have fun!LOL
*i wonder if the candle leftovers were still there, HAHA*
we sure messed up the place a little but we dont care=)haha.
so that was a fun though bit childish night outing for us with candles and sing-songs=)teeheez..
some of the pics are here.will upload more when i got photos from others=)

*LOVE*

my "little artwork" hehe

staircase of candlelights

today just went for a short first meeting of the chinese society's publicity for subcom and maincom..
got to know some ppl but most of them(there are only 10 subcom)are from AMCISA..
and today evening also just went for the interview for BS club social secretary subcom..
hope evrything'll be fine=)
tmr going to be the hall JCRC subcom interview and recruitment..
fenwei gotta jiayou jiayou!!
haha

p/s:really need to catch some sleep as i always dozed off in the morning lectures nowadays:(
oya btw, susu, if you are reading this, our primary sch friends liping and zijian are studying maths&econs(MAEC)here!!saw them today after having meeting..it's so coincidently!!but really happy that i found them here=)and also do u rmb liechin??our SSI KRS senior last time..she's my next next next neighbour!!haha=)
&i found that my cbox those on the left side box got problem!shit!i'll try to fix it when i have time though..any comment can always send me oofline msg..hehe=))

that's all for now
gotta do econs tutorials:(
KAMPATE!!

the tougher shall make me stronger..

2008-09-07T01:05:00.004+08:00

it has been the third week of my uni life here at ntu..
*im still adapting and learning*
haha..
for studies, needless to say, im still very lack behind and sort of blur-blur about the subjects that i have taken:(
but i think im doing better now though*cheer up fenwei!!*
at least this week's classes i can understand better than my first two weeks.
but still all are hard!
i need to speed up my study speed and enhance my memory~~:(
&i really need to buck up myself..
cos i know no one can help me and pull me up except me myself..
i knew quite a few coursemates here..
though not yet that close as they had already knew each other before term started due to the FOC(Freshman Orientation Camp)
but i must never give up myself!
so i promise myself to be strong!
must believe that i can do it~
cos i know im always that kind of person that is pessimistic and tend to lose faith and confidence especially when coming to a new place with all unknown ppl..
i lose confidence easily..
i scared of not being able to mix in and make friends..
and all sorts of thoughts..
but luckily, i do know a few closer friends from MSA(Malaysian Student Association)though we all diffferent courses=)
some friends knew during the medical check-up(all late comers)
some friends in my tutorial class(as we all might be in same lectures but different tutorial classes)
some friends from different course but same in SBS(not the bus, haha, but School of Biological Sciences)
and dont forget also friends from sunway college!=)haha
we all dont usually stick all time together as we have diff classes, stay diff halls, etc etc..
but friends do really help me ALOT!!
thanks for everyone!
especially shuhui(dear susu i got a spore friend here same name as u!haha but diff chinese name)she really helped me alot by lending me notes, accompanying me the last one to leave the comp lab last friday(i actually was on the verge of giving up when i dont understand even a word during the lecture, and i saw like almost evryone else had started on their lab report right after the guidance from the lecturer..), eat lunch together sometimes, but unfortunately she's not staying in hall..but anyway, really appreciate the help i have gotten=)
i must really buck up already!!!
oya btw, as i mentioned before, i need to gain points to stay in hall..
so luckily i got a post in chinese society, which is the publication&publicity subcom(im in the group of designing board which i not really have the confidence:-S )
but it only gives three points
i need at least six points.and we cannot add the points together but to choose the highest point~
im going for interview of social subcom in BS club
and might try also hall jcrc(hall com)if still cant get points..
*pray hard pray hard*
and these are some pics taken when i went celebrate birthday with a few friends from MSA
even tough i find it quite weird as im the only odd one there, i mean a late-comer and dont get over 50% of what they are talking about, haha, but they are all very good and helpful=))

we(me, tingyue, jiayi)first go to the "radio station" at ntu to pick up sinyee, who works part-time at the RadioFushion(a special radio programme just in ntu, cool aint??)

the birthday guy tingyue=)

me and the photo-loving jiayi=)

all of us(tingyue, sinyee, jiayi, chonglin*dunno how to spell his name,lol*, me)

this is the most beautiful building in ntu!!with green and lush lawn on top of the buiding..
if anyone of u watching spore drama "qiu2ai4da4zhan4", i heard there was one scene taken here at ntu, haha, ya so this is the ADM(School of Arts, Design and Media)
and i heard rumours that anyone birthday will be pushed into the water pool there, LOL

that's all for now
=)

jiayou fenwei~~~

new life, new ppl, new challenges

2008-08-28T21:38:00.003+08:00

yeah it has been around like 2-3weeks since i last updated my poor bloggie~im super busy nowadays!as u have known(or may not, haha),i have been starting my new university life here at NTU in spore..life has been tough and challenging for me..as im a late entry student, i find it extremely hard to catch up all the stuffs:(like academic stuffs, getting to know and trying to mix or sort of fit in with ppl here, all kinds of complicated admisssion procedures etc..it has been one week, almost two weeks for me here..while all other freshmen had already been here for like one month.hahai cannot say that i have aleady completely adjusted to the life here.but now it is definitely better than the first day, or rather the first week in NTUi still vividly remembered how i cried so pitifully on the second day i was here, which is the first day i went to the lessons.i was like TOTALLY dont understand even the slightest idea of the topics in my lessons!!and somemore i was so so alone there in the class:(
where everyone else has their own friends and i can hardly find any chances to talk and ask questions from them.
as i already missed out alot things and was very blur about everything!
like lectures notes and tutorials, they usually post them online and i didnt know at all!
and also there are lotsa devices and machines of new technology the students utilise and i found myself a real "kampung girl" sometimes because the thing that they see as normal and convenient, i dunno how to use it.
haha&i tried to get to know some friends but most of them already had their gang..and hard to find someone to ask homeworks or someone to clear my doubts.
but luckily now i have known quite a few friends in my class:)
just that not really really very click but at least i have someone to ask for little bit of guidance and someone to talk to..
really do hope that i can find good friends here
who can study hard as well as play hard together with me!haha
i know these kinds of things do need time.
so just pray the best for me=)
haix..
apart from that, my most worried concern is regarding my studies!!
till now, im still very very lacking behind!
u might say that it has only been two weeks lessons that i missed and u might thought that the first few weeks are normally very relaxing.
i have absolute prove that u r wrong!very wrong!!
actually we late-comers already misses all those important lectures which was like the basic or foundation
once u missed it, it can be very hard to catch up the coming ones:(
and this is what happened to me!
all those previous lectures and tutorials, i havent even started to deal with them, and here it comes more and more new lectures, tutorials and assignments!
it's super stressful~
&i really need to work very very hard!
and cope well with my stress level:-S
every other students are all very smart and it is competitive*my intuition*haha
and another concern is that i have yet to gain any points for my ECA(extra curricular activities)!!
in order to stay in hostel the next year and so on, i need to earn many points!
if not will be kicked out!gosh..
recently i just joined as a small memeber in the chinese society.and failed in the audition to enter choirTT
hope can become sub/main committee member in any of the clubs, cos the points are only counted for the highest but not to add up!
&¬ forget to mention my AU, which is sort of the academic points that i should clear of in the four years of my studies..
the required one for me is 19 but i only had 16 TT
which means next semester i need to get one extra subject!sighz
good thing is that since im still trying to get used to evrything here, with less subjects perhaps i can cope better, bad thing is that as the coming semesters will be getting harder, taking extra subj then might kill me~:(
sobx~

*hope evrything is going to be fine...*

anyway, some pics from here..
my room(oya my roommate is jiashin)

glimpse of my School of Biological Science

mind u, NTU is super big for a sotong like me..HAHA
i lost my ways dunno how many times already.
haha

NTU~my life ahead...

2008-08-15T17:54:00.003+08:00

FINALLY,
yeap it's really finally..
im entering uni
and u know what?i gotta arrive at NTU latest by next monday!!
gosh..
everything is like soo rushed and i havent even gotten my mind prepared yet..
both physically and mentally and emotionally..
but i'll try to!
to do my best, to be independant, to be well-prepared.
it's like few days ago i was still relaxing and mind-holidaying, and then out of a sudden i got the offer from NTU and gotta be a uni student real SOON.
it's like im the last to apply but the first to enter uni
like what shanlei said, yesterday was just chatting on msn with me and then next monday im going uni~
and the farewell gathering with yy, now has become the last outing of me with my union gang girls~~
HAHA
despite the instinct excitement, happiness and relief that i have finally been accepted by a good uni(cos i was rejected by NUS few days ago tooTT), i still cant help but to feel the nervousity, afraid and a future with lotsa uncertainties and challenges which await me..
im quite scared deep down..
will i be able to survive and adjust to a new environment?
make good friends with new people?
catch up with studies which i have been left behind(cos they already started lessons couple of weeks ago)?
lead an independent and self-discipline life onwards?
lots&lots of thoughts flooded my mind..
but i have to be strong i know, to be able to survive and learn..
i must have faith and belief in myself!!~~
*pray for the best*

anyway, i have been "super duper quadruple" busy these few days.
as u might know that there are mountains of things and preparations to be done.
what more that im sort of a late-comer into the uni!
where everybody else has already settled down..or going to..
haix..
and i missed the orientation!!
which is only held once in a person's "uni lifetime"..
i guess that'll be the thing which i'll regret when i come to reminiscience of my uni life the next time..haha
i might not be able to blog for some time..
just hope that everything goes smooth for me:)
*pray hard pray hard~*

thank goodness!!!=)

2008-08-12T12:38:00.004+08:00

got my a-level results yesterday..
and thank goodness!i got 4 A's!!!:p
my hardwork and effort in the exam has finally paid off~*relieved~*
congrats to all my friends who got very well results too!haha
while for those who didnt get ur satisfied results, nevermind, jiayou,jiayou and jiayou!!!=)buck up&cheer up and never lose hope!
when there's a will, there'll be surely be ways:)
continue ur hardwork if u have succeeded, work harder again if u have not.
that's what life's about.
i have always believed that when u have gotten something, there must be something else that u'll lose.
once u get over with the emotions, moving on.dun ever lose faith.
anyway yesterday i was quite busy applying for spore uni..
really really hope that i can enter.
it's time to start a new chapter in my life,
and i want to make it better and as wonderful as i can!hehe
jiayou and good luck fenwei!!!

btw, had lunch at Lavender's cafe with mum yesterday before i went to take my results around 230pm.
i had my meal with my heart thumping very strong as im waiting for the release of my results!haha
so i didnt had a heavy meal.
and when i received call from dear qiqi that she and jiashin had gotten their results and that they both got straight A's, my heart almost jumped out of my heart!!haha.
i was soo happy for them but at the same time being soo nervous&scared for mine.:-S

Royal cake(orange flavour),garlic bread, americano & honey tea=)

and here are the photos from the farewell outing with yy:

huishan, yy, yy's sis, me

susu, yy, yy's sis, me

we at baskin robbins cafe!!*yumyum*

at roibo=)

funny susu, me and huishan.teeheez:p

photos developed~=))
*union gathering rockss!!!* toobad tian coulnt make it:(

love u guys!!
muacksss XOXO
=p

saturday, sunday, monday

2008-08-11T11:10:00.004+08:00

..saturday..
quite tired whole day cos aint got nice sleep on friday.haha
was watching the Beijing Olympic opening ceremony and the Teen Choice Award till quite late.ahaha
one word to describe the opening ceremony-AWESOME!!!
i have never seen such grand and fabulous opening ceremony!
the fireworks, the performances, the atmosphere, the crowd, the procession of 204countries, etc etc..
the most eye-catching one must be the lighting of the torch!
where one of the outstanding athletes ran high up in the air surrounding the bird nest stadium to light up the olympic torch~
haha
i also rmb one of the fireworks that resembles footprint walking towards the stadium~
&¬ forgot to mention their super "keseragaman" and uniformity in all performances
wow~
lolx
anyway, later on had lunch at the Manhattan Fish Market=)
food are super delicious:))) HAHA
went there with my family and relatives cos they came from spore(saturday was their national day, haha)
fried mushroom
i love their sauces!!!=)

salad

mocha(observe the layers, they are moving and floating~~, haha)

sis's fish and chips(Dory fish)

my cuppuccino=)*loves*

my baked dory fish with garden herbs=)

mum's king salmon set

been helping sis to revise her science too, as a tutor
haha.
hope she can get very good results=)
then at least i got the satisfaction.MUAHAHA

..sunday..
went out with yanyi, yanyi's sis, susu, qiqi and huishan at cs.
is sort of a farewell gathering with yy before she goes indonesia under jpa scholarship.
im soosoo gonna miss her~
will update the photos asap=)
and btw, we developed the photos we took in camera using the photo-developing machine at Kodak.hehe
so cheap compared to neo-prints last time.haha
*love the pics*

..monday..
can u believe it?
im still sitting in front of the computer when my A-level results is going to be released 3 hours later, which is 230pm!
gosh so nervous and scared right now~
*chill chill*
pray for the best~
&i hope evryone can get very good results!
oya yy got straight A's!!!
congrats congrates!!~~

ciaoz=)

birthday celebration with dear qiqi+beijing olympic+couple or trouble

2008-08-08T15:49:00.008+08:00

yesterday was qiqi's 18th birthday!!
and we(me, tian, theresa, william, weiheng)celebrated with her:]
at first me and tian decided to take bus there, as we all would be gathered in front of MCD at kerry's around 12noon.
however, the weather didnt suit us:(
perling area here was raining very heavily just when we wanted to depart.haha
in the end tian drove, first sent her mum to do some banking, later we headed town.
we dropped by at Niniq's bakery and bistro to buy a birthday cake for qiqi:)
&we two chose the strawberry+cheese+chocolate cake~
which is very very yummy-looking!!!hahaha
with fresh strawberries on top and the other two layers of cheese and choco at the bottom;)
too bad jiashin aka miss strawberry couldnt come as she had classes;(
or else im sure she will be OVERWHELMED by the strawberries~lol
this is it..

after we bought the cake, tian's mum dropped us by kerrys.
we then proceeded on to Nando's for lunch=)
*this is the FIRST time i went there!haha*
basically they sell chickens.haha.with a variety of sauces specially produced by nando's=)
from left:tomato sauce, garlic sauce, hot chilli sauce&extra hot chilli sauce..

i had the same dishes as qiqi and we shared the "bottomless soft drinks"
which means they keep on adding it during ur course.hehehe
the grilled chicken+rice+salad

after this fulfilling meal, haha, we had the birthday-song-cut-cake process there.hehe
and the waiters and waitresses there were very helpful and warming to provide us with the cutlery and took the photo for us.haha

the birthday girl=)

later on, qiqi drove the six of us to leisure mall for bowling.haha

this is the SECOND time i have been there.haha
but my bowling skills is as bad as last time;((
except that maybe i had improved a little bit, haha, yeah just a tiny bit.
we played three games all together.
my score was like going on roller coaster, haha, which is 62 -> 86 -> 42 (if im not wrong)
haha.quite embarrasing and funny as i got the lowest score in the third round
ish!!
haha
the birthday girl aka qiqi is the strongest one!!
gosh she is the only one whose scores are over-hundred!!
wow~~made me *orz*.hahahaha
anyway, had an enjoyable time yesterday=)

about today, im quite excited out of my expectation as the Beijing Olympic 2008 starts today!!!
hahaha
though i have nothing to do with the Olympic Games, as i suck in sports(haha, except that last time secodary school i played volleyball and involved in larian, but not outsatnding at all, teehee), i can still feel the excitement and joyous anticipation from all over the world.
for instance, these days i have been reading some articles on newspaper on the Olympic Games and gained some knowledge regarding some of its history and emblem.haha.everyone seems so looking forward to this big event.

see the evidence.haha.
the new logo of sogou.com

the new logo of google.com

creative=)

the five cute Fuwa which are the Olympic mascots(i like them more than any other mascots from the previous Olympic games, simply because they are so cute and each of them actually resembles something very important in the cultures and arts of China)
they are called "beibei", "jingjing", "huanhuan", "yingying", "nini", which pronounced together as "beijing huan ying ni", which means beijing welcomes u.hehe

the emblem(dancing Beijing)
also their theme slogan : One World One Dream

the sports venues which have very artistic design:
the water cube-a blue beijing wonder.for the aquatics..

the bird's nest=)*really looks like one,haha*

their medals(with jade pieces inscribed with dragon pattern on it, whoa!)

and i hope i wont miss the same-time telecast of the events on tv!
haha.
but today when i was browsing through the newspaper on the tv schedule, found that there will be the opening ceremony live on channel5 but it clashes with my favourite korean drama on channel U!!!
urgh..
i guess i will be switching the channels here and there later at night.haha.try to watch both shows as much as possible.HEHE
anyway, strong recommendation for this korean show!!!
a very funny and relaxing show after dinner.HAHA
*a must-watch=)*

or =)

more updates=)

2008-08-06T16:34:00.006+08:00

been quite busy these days..
haha..

...last sunday...
went to susu's house to do sushi AGAIN!!!
yay yay!!haha
but this time i was the "sushi master", who need to pass on the technique of making sushi from shuying to my "apprentices"--susu,her sis,qiqi.HEHEHE
the whole process was funny and enjoying=)
we talked alot craps&jokes and laughed all the way along..
but but, the product were still yummy and delectable as last time when i did it with the guidance from shuying..haha
just that we didnt have the brown and pink-color ingredient this time.
and the rice was less "moist"..haha need to put in more water next time:]
hope that my teachings wasnt too bad.HAHA
and mind you, cutting the roll of sushi into pieces required great skills and patience!!&dont forget u need a real sharp knife.haha.or else ur sushi will be cut out-of-shape..TEEHEE
&im proud to say that my cutting and rolling sushi skills had improved:D:D
*anyway i can say that susu is really a good cook and housewife-to-be man!!next time if i wanted to learn cooking and stuffs, really need to ask her to be my master!hahahaha*
*&&"somebody"--XXXXX is going to be fortunate if he has susu as his wife.HAHAHA*

*she's gonna kill me~~~~*

oopps..HAHA(just joking la k)

so here was the result!!*taadaa~~*
my share of the sushi^.^

and not forgetting to mention this also, we did chocolate marshmallow too!!!
*yum yum*
CHOCOLATE IS MY FAVOURITE!*i ate until susu told me that i can have her whole plate of half-melted chocolate home if i dun mind*
*gulpz, haha*
woohootss~~
&thanks to qiqi cos she taught us how to do it and also prepare the ingredients for us=]
next time i must do it once myself..hehe
and im planning to do pancake or waffles at home~*just planning, havent even started cos need to buy the ingredients.haha*
-alot of things wana to try out but seeems like running out of time-
haha
and my results will be OUT next monday~~~
:-S

melted baking+cooking chocolate

oven-ing the marshmallow=)
*too bad can only get this kind of "raw" marshmallow in spore, cos didnt see any here*

choco+marshmallow= heavenly-made~~ AHAHA

mixing and rolling the ready-baked marshmallow in the "pool of choco"

in the end there left alot choco, so we even tried out "choco-coated banana"
HAHA
*nice~*
next time can try more flavours by adding other fruits..hehe

at night, went to the famaous PC fair at persada
with susu and her family
i can describe the place as being "ppl mountain ppl sea"!
haha.cos there were really alot ppl and we almost caught suffocated there!
but luckily some area were not as crowded, so we could breathe in some fresh air.haha
i bought only one memory card for my sis
in the end i didnt get what i want..haha.the kind of memory card for my phone was already sold out the first day.
*yeah sunday was the last day u see*
and actually i did see the type of memory card i need, hanging out there, but just when i was considering at the side of the booth, another guy(who bought alot of other stuffs there too)asked the sales person to take it away!!!
obviously he wanted to buy it!!!
and the memory card just "flew away" like this right in front of my eyes=.='''
near the end of the day they actually "lelong lelong" for their products man!
i mean they shouted here and there using loud speakers.@@.haha
&saw debbie and jess at the booth selling MEETOO camera tools..

a tired whole day out~
haha

...monday...
went to pasar malam with dear susu and miss sheautian=)
haha
actually this is the first time i went to pasar malam at layang.
though i live quite near there.haha
*susu was like *eyes-wide-open & jaw-dropping* when i said that.HAHA
kinda fun and got to experience the nighttime explore at pasar malam.hehe
not to forget to taste some nice food and snacks.e.g. the keropok=)
and the stuffs selling there are super cheap!!
food la, acccesories la, clothes la, alot of stuffs.
and they even sell body and hair shampoo and face cleansing lotion etc~haha
anyway i bought myself and my sis one pair of short pants each=)
*but both of them fade lotsa color when i wash them, now still in the pails, haha*

...yesterday...
this, gotta be the main reason why i have been "missing" from on9-ing and blog-ing these few days..haha
been helping my mum to SEW a new LAUNDRY BAG=D
YEAH this is a real real BIG&MEGA project~~
took me 2-3days and nights*exclude nights la, haha*to finish..
i SEW them with both of my HANDS and not machine okay.
haha.*proud sia~*

materials aka "input"

sketches and outlines in my notebook.HAHA
*i feel like a contestant in .hehe*

the outcome aka "output"=)

the inner side.haha

side-look

*winkss*^_^

outing~

2008-08-01T15:47:00.004+08:00

yesterday went out with qiqi & tian..
to sutera mall, AGAIN, haha..
but this time i discovered more of this shopping mall=)
qiqi was our "driver-of-the-day".lol
before this, we had our lunch at hwa mui restaurant..
yeah, i guess it's the third time i went there..hehe
food still as nice as it is, haha, but i got to try other food:)
*all pics here are from qiqi's phone camera^^*

the SPICY kampung fried rice

the crispy hainanese chicken chop(i love the potato wedges;]!!)

the mall was quite packed with shoppers!!
the moment we entered the parking area, almost all the parking spaces were occupied!
haha*till we had to "earn" our parking lot quite difficultly, hehe*
more ppl were there out of my expectation.lol
i thought there werent be alot ppl at that time which is around noon time since it was also a weekday.
nevertheless, we still enjoy our staying there=)
got to shop around the "trendy zone"
in which all the shops are selling nice and "trendy" fashion clothes&accesories.haha
no wonder i heard tian said liyen was disappointed about his trip to sutera mall cos ere selling lotsa girls'stuffs..teeheez

and my "urge" to shopping came around~
haha
but didnt buy any though i saw alot things that i wished to buy:(

just when we got almost lost in the trendy zone(cos the layout is quite complicated @.@), we found this shop called "indulge" selling lotsa chocolate stuffs=)
*yum yum~*

next time i wanna try out their chocolate fondue which i have never tried before!
haha

then we bought some snacks to fill our stomach and satisfy our tastebuds=)
me and tian shared this packet of kaya ball(left only two, haha)

and qiqi bought herself chocolate waffle
which is the same i tried last time.haha.*i recommended it to her=)*
~yeayea we both like waffles a whole lot!!!haha~

after this we went in to carrefour.
cos tian was asked by her mum to buy vitagen and brown sugars and some lemons.
this is the first time i went grocery-shopping with friends=)
it was very fun!
cos usually when i go with parents, my mum'll tell me some tips about how to choose the best*e.g.vege and fruits*
then yesterday we got clueless about how to choose the lemons!haha.cos they look almost the same!
anyway, tian(if u r reading this), my mum told me that u should buy lemons which are green in colour to drink, cos normally those yellow ones are used for cooking and other stuffs.hehe.
*obviously my mum is always the faithful listener to 97.2Fm, which some of their programmes stress alot on health and beauty stuffs=) haha*
and we played and fooled around with this "four-wheel-drive" basket at carrefour.

bet is their new invention!HAHA
i bought dutch lady mango yoghurt and the sushi roll(which is super costly~)!
*yay im ready for the sushi making day this weekend, hope everyone can make it, as we had almost all the ingredients ready=)*

later on, we had our yumcha time at this "Island Red Cafe"
*i kept calling it "red island cafe", ahaha*

it's the first time i been there=)
quite nice with the food and drinks.
and we invited susu to our yumcha gathering too~
this is tian's "smooth and silky" special "red island" hor fun..

me and susu's oreo cheese cake*it's super duper delicious!!!*

~the end~=)

dog catchers!!:/

2008-07-30T17:11:00.003+08:00

recently there are alot of stray dogs coming from no-where near my neighbourhood.
&today, they were caught*quite brutally*by some dog catchers who were all malays!!
OMG~
this took place when me and mum were just about to drive out for some grocery-shopping..
suddenly we heard painful barkings and cryings from the doggies!!*they were all quite big-sized*
and i quickly rushed out to see what had happened..
but i only saw some dogs were brutally pushed into lorry-kind of vehicle.
the ones that look alot like vans used to carry prisoners*with fences that u can somehow see the dogs inside*
as i didnt see the earlier parts, my neighbour auntie who watched them said they use chains to hook up the dogs' head and abruptly sent them into the vehicle..
i was very shocked to hear that!!!
that is very cruel!!to treat animals in that way!
and i wonder who were the people that caught the dogs..
i saw they wore some kind of "uniforms"
i hope that they are not some bad people..cos i once heard that there are people who catch those stray dogs and ill-treat them or even EAT them!!!
i do hope that they are some professional personel who are ordered by the municipal council to send the dogs to some other safe places like animal shelters..as it must be someone from our neighbourhood who complained about the disturbance caused by these poor stray doggies..
i felt sympathy for the dogs actually..
what will be their fate and what is waiting for them ahead?
i cant imagine..
even my neighbour said the dogs are bound to something unhamane this time..
gosh..
but my mum said luckily they didnt shoot them to death on the spot*i remebered i heard some noises that must be the shooting of these stray dogs at night when i was young*!!
but will they get better if they are being abused and beaten later on??
haix..
my mum said some stray dogs are actually dogs which are abandoned by their owners..
so, please, if u r dog owner, never ever abandon ur dog(s)..
imagine what they will cease to be..
lucky ones may survive, but unlucky ones...
and also, never ever buy urself a pet just out of sudden desire or want to try on something new, and then throw them aside..
that's why my mum never allow to buy me and sis dogs or cats as pets..
she scared we would ignore them someday..
then they'll be very pitiful.TT
so, if u seriously want to but one, please, be a responsible owner..
animals have feelings too~
anyway, back to the topic, the dogs here didnt really caused any trouble*as they have never attacked anyone here, nor barked non-stop in the nights, at least this is from what i know, but idk if there is any that i didnt hear of*
there are around 5-6 dogs accroding to mum as she saw them wandering around..
a huge amount actually!!haha
not that i wish them to be wandering around our neighbourhood, but neither do i want them to be destroyed!!
so just hope that they are really being sent to those respective places that take care of stray animals..

&just a small story here related to those stray doggies at my neighbourhood..
one day, i remember i was opening my house automatic gate using the automatic device, to let my sis in after she came back from school.
that time it was very stormy and rainy..
just when i quickly opened the gate, a stray dog*idk if it was also caught today*followed my sis in!!
cos it wanted some shelter from the rain.
i was very panicked that time cos a big dark-brown dog had entered the house compound.
as my mum hates to have any stray animals in the house, i had to went out and automatically opened the gate to "shoo" the dog out.
i can tell u that i felt very very sorry, to the very utmost extent just when i tried to chase the dog out.
i can still remember clearly now that the dog was looking at me with its watery and pleading eyes..;(
but i cant help it because my mum would scold me if i didnt get rid of it.
i guess maybe u can tell the awkward situation i was in that time..
i really felt very sorry to the dog.
i felt myself cruel and had no feelings.
it just wanted some shelter and protection in the rain.
and yet i coulnt help this poor creature.
so it walked slowly and obediently out of my house after i shoo-ed it out, gently..
if my mum were not in that time, i would probably let it have some rest there till the rain is gone..
i dont know why, but this event had somehow leave quite a heavy impact on me..

i curi-curi took the photo of the vehicle that drove the animals away..

p/s:there were also lotsa stray cats at the back alley of my house, much more than the number of the dogs.
i guess here is becoming like a "small heaven and refugee" for stray animals already though*gulp*

太王四神记 aka The Legend

2008-07-28T14:17:00.004+08:00

The Legend / TWSSG OST (太王四神記)

太王四神记 aka The Legend
finally comea to an end this saturday.
haix im gonna miss it, cos it's like the only thing that im looking forward to on weekend nights..hehe
i like the drama and the songs=)*though i dont quite understand the ending part>.<*
especially track no.2 & 16!!

sad thing is that it has ended:(
but the happy thing for my dad is that he doesnt need to help us tapao dinner every sturday and sunday.*cos obviously we just got stuck to the tv screen without leaving, muahaha*

the main actor 谈德太子（裴勇俊）

琦荷（文素莉）

秀芝妮（李智雅）

sujini is damn pretty!!=)

one of the 神物

朱雀

青龙

白虎

玄武

=)

last last outing

2008-07-27T22:31:00.003+08:00

just to upload some photos taken last tuesday.
when me, susu and shuying went to SDS cake house at perling to "yumcha"..
haha
also to have like a farewell gathering before shuying goes to NUS
*how i wish i can enter NUS too this year*

*make me suddenly think of the coming-real-soon of the release of my results*
11 AUGUST..
oh my godness..it's coming real soon~
*fingers crossing* + *hands shivering* + *pray hard*
lolx

our food=)

my slice of mango cake.nice!

shuying and me

susu aka milk majesty and me

=)

my darling shoes=)

2008-07-27T22:12:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just scared that i dirty it accidentally when im wearing it out=)
*hush hush*
MUAHAHA

*random*~

yesterday & today

2008-07-27T16:29:00.004+08:00

have u heard of sutera mall?
yeah, that's a new shopping mall located at taman sutera utama..just next the famous restaurant pekin.
haha
been there yesterday as it's quite near to my house.
have to by pass bukit indah and nusa bestari..
the main reason that dad bought us there was that there is a new carrefour in that building..
so we just went there to shop for some groceries=)
i swear i didnt know that there are so many outlets there until the moment i stepped into it..haha
i thought it is some kind of small mart like perling mall or bestmart or kipmart.
LOL
but i turned out that i was wrong.very wrong!
why?
because u can see alot high-rated shops there like levi's, mixit, summit, macoca etc..*though there are some still under renovation*
and there is an area called "trendy zone" which is totally like "inner city" at city square!!
yea i dont bluff u..it's real!!
haha.
but yesterday we didnt really shop for clothes there.
just walking around and fed my eyes with the new surrounding and shoplots..hehe
maybe next time we perling or nearby ppl can shop there..ahaha..
but there'll be yet another new jusco at bukit indah in the near future..
gonna see tough competition between them then..haha
anyway i had a yummy choco waffle yesterday bought at a shop called "fun hut" in sutera mall.nice~ :]
&&i had my lunch too near restaurant pekin.
it's called restaurant hwa mui..
my mum said this is their other outlet cos there is one originally near custom town area.
haha.the food is nice and quite cheap compared to other likewise kopitiam=)

their cup of coffee is as BIG as that glass of iced lemon tea
haha.*but u must order a big one.teeheezz*

&i ordered their "breakfast set" as my lunch meal.
funny eh?!haha
but it's delicious*wink*

and for today, i've been quite abit busy helping my sis in her project.
yes..AGAIN!!
haha..and this time it is her GEOGRAOHY school project
poor thing her, it's near the exam period but they still need to do all this.
haix..so me, as her "very kind & helpful" sister gotta help her "whole-heartedly"
MUAHAHA

one of the exmaples:

sushi & dark knight

2008-07-25T14:45:00.008+08:00

yesterday two great events took place..
LOL
firstly, went to shuying's place to learn the making of SUSHI from her.
i call her my SUSHI MASTER~
haha
coz the sushi we made are so so delicious=)
thanks to her guidance, i have finally mastered some of the skills in making sushi..haha..though im still bad at rolling the sushi:(
but my "master" said im already quite good as a first-time learner!teeheez..
so first, i drove to her place(around 10.30 in the morning)to pick her up and together we headed for perling mall to buy some ingredients=)
as shuying already had most of them, we bought only the seaweed and the japanese cucumber..
and because i have to rush home around 1pm, shuying suggested that she go soaked and cooked the rice beforehand and prepared the other ingredients before i came..hehe

these are the ingredients:

the "special" japanese rice(called "pearl rice" in mandarin)-the brand is SAKURA(:

i remember shuying said soak the rice for an hour, then using the equation -- 1 cup of rice=1.5 cup of water, cook the rice as usual using rice cooker

mix the rice(already cooked)with japanese vinegar(one quarter of the amount of rice)..and do this under the fan as to cool the rice so that it is not too hot when u prepare the sushi=)*and oya, remember to add in the vinegar bit by bit(not add all in at one time)while mixing it with the sticky rice..hehe

cut cucumber, scrambled egg, crabmeat in long slices..

u can see from the above pic that there's a bowl of brown substances right?this is the packet of it which i dont know what's its name..muahaha..shuying said it is abit sweet but i tasted it abit salty.haha

the packet of seaweed(u need to buy this roasted seaweed in big pieces)the one we bought has 10 pieces in it

do not forget the yummy mayonesse=)*i think i spelt it wrongly :X*

what's this?!u may wonder, haha..*this is not holy water-just for laughs^^*
this bowl consists of the leftover of vinegar water--u might remember the cup we used to put in that one quarter of vinegar right?haha, very easy, u just need to rinse the cup into this bowl..u need to immerse ur hand in it before u could use ur hand to hold the rice as it is sticky..vinegar makes ur hand becoming less sticky when handling the rice=)

so yeap, u can start making the sushi!!(:

the surface of the seaweed on which u put on those ingredints should be the less shiny one, the smoother surface should be on the outside=)

one e.g. before the rolling part.lol

roll~roll~roll~(u might want to do it in a quick way to avoid the ingredients got scattered and not rolled in *winkz* )

u can cut one long roll of sushi into approximately eight pieces(with two of them being the "edge", which is shuying's favourite!HAHA)

our "hasil yang bermutu" HAHAHAHA
one for shuying's bro, one for susu and two for me!teeheezz..*im soo greedy>.< haha*

dear shuying--THE SUSHI MASTER!!*all smiles on with the sushi~~*

the apprentice me!HAHA

and now, this is the end of the making=)

**well thanks for viewing the great making and recipe of yummilicious sushi.
--brought to you by the SUSHI MASTER-shuying and the reporter-fenwei**

haha,just for laugh...

anyway, after this,
i went to watch the batman-the DARK KNIGHT at jusco tebraucity=)
i must admit that this is my most favourite movie up till now..
haha
out of all the movies that i've watched in this year..
really worthwhile(:
i shall not comment more on it here because U SHOULD REALLY GO CATCH IT URSELF!!!
lolx..

christian bale (as bruce wayne) is HOT!!!muahahas=)

heath ledger (as joker) is really a good actor!!his death is indeed a great loss=(

christian bale and maggie gyllenhaal (as rachel dawes)--me and mum both think that she looks alot like maryjane(kirsten dunst)!!!haha

nodame cantabile=)

2008-07-23T19:36:00.003+08:00

YAY!!!
i have finally finished the show=)
it's absolutely BRAVO!!
a very nice and enlightening japanese drama that really opened my eyes to those talented people in music!!
*how i wish i was as talented as they are~*
LOL
it brings me tremendous joy and happiness just to see them performing and enjoying themselves very much in music:)
though im not musically talented, haha(i stopped my piano since grade one, HAHA), it's great to engross myself*as if im in the orchestra, hehe*when they are performing..
and also not to forget to mention the sweet yet funny relationship between chiaki and nodame:)))
haha
overall it's a very very nice show that i wouldn't regret to watch it over and over again..HAHA

my heart does go out for them!!

haha.cant wait to be able to watch their special episode in europe=)

updates=)

2008-07-21T15:36:00.005+08:00

it has been around one week since i last blogged a post..
haha..
well let's recall what i have done in that week..^^

1.went back to college(at last, haha)to submit my refund form last wednesday..according to the terms stated, i'll receive my refund in 2-3 weeks..lol..
also, i went to pass to zhemin my a-levels stuffs that i wish to sell off..haha..together with miss strawberry..mostly those past-year papers..and some ausmat books from janet..i doubt anyone would want to buy mine coz i had written alot on them..teeheez..but hopefully they can be sold:)
meanwhile, i also went to get the dvd recording last year's annual ball from ms.jade..haha..but the quality is not that good, i kept playing it but it got stuck starting from scene2..TT
anyway, i found that college is really becoming more active and lively as a whole..haha..not only the parking lot now is almost fully-parked everyday, alot activities and events are going on..for example they are having this so-called photo-shooting with professionals from 8tv that day..wow!haha..heard from ms.jade that dinega(i wonder if i spell wrongly>.<)got selected!haha..much congrats=)
in fact i am really glad to see that the student ambassador board is getting more active and creative(:though i am no longer a student from sunway college now.haha..keep it up guys!!

2.finally i finished Vampire Knight season1!!!!!yay!!haha..im super happy and cant wait for the release of season 2 man!there were only 13 episodes for season 1*not fair not fair*ahaha..this anime craze is really addictive~~haha..susu and emma will surely agree with me!
MUAHAHA

3.&&i am also finished with CAMP ROCK!!!*much yayness*
haha..i quite like the songs and story of it..
those who love HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL series(as i am, haha), u shouln't miss it!!lol
but as i have no astro channels at home, i watched it all at youtube..
hahas.

sweet mitchie and shane gray;)

4.with help and guidance from mum, i learned and came up with this dessert:
ingredients: sagu, lump sugars, milk, water and lastly fruits=)*e.g. watermelon, honeydew etc

this is with honeydew

this is with watermelon

5.my "handimade" self-painted converse shoes=)
it took me nearly 4 hours to finish!!
haha.however..
when my dad saw me doing it, he said: gosh!why u paint that colour?nice-nice white shoes u so free to paint it until like this..=.=''
when my mum saw me doing it, she said: so free to paint shoes?never see u soo "hardworking" in other things like housechores?!=.='''
URGH..nevermind, it's my interest to do this!
LOL
i found that i can be real concentrated and focused and determined when i wanted to do something very badly..haha
but in the end my mum did praise me a little bit by saying: hmm look quite nice..
HAHA
at least someone other than me myself appreciated my hard-work..HAHAHAHA
though not really nice-looking, but im quite satisfied with it=]
coz at first i wanted to draw something on it, but i got only one fabric dye which is yellow colour..
so i just leave it as it is for now=)
yayness~~
can wear it next time i go out!
and i decided to put on dark purple shoelace..hehe.

before..

in the process..

and after!!done=)